Poetic Musings

Why Now?

Why now do I feel remorse,
Why now do we converse?
Why now do you treat me like you once did?
Hear, for I do not kid,
It were your lips
I once yearned to kiss;
But then they turned to ice,
Ripping me apart like a tiny set of knives;
But now,
Now you're trying to soften the blow,
But these wounds, they shall not heal without glorious scars.

Why now?
Why do you now decide to treat me like a princess?
Why did it ever cease;
Do you not understand all you've done to me?
Your laugh, your love,
It once made me so high,
But soon 'enough, you left our passion on the roadside,
To slowly shutter, wither away, and die;
So I had to lie,
Merely just to appease you;
But baby, you couldn't keep me anymore.
Time and I weren't to allow it;
Our love was grand when it was born,
And now, I've left you just a little bit more torn.

So why now?
Why now can you look me in the eye,
Stating how deeply your love runs,
When less than a week ago,
Your love felt as if it ran drier than any desert.

Why now do you try con your way back into my heart?
Honestly, you had had it from the start,
Then you left it there in the dark;
Never knowing if things would ever re-spark.
But, alas, that mysterious questions is solved,
Our love, it once fizzled, but now it's dissolved;
Leaving us as friends, not lovers.
For the least, we shan't know further pain from one another,
This was a lesson from which we've both gained,
But tell me, why now?
Why now do you say my name so sweetly, once again?
Why now must you torment me with what we once had,
Before the trap-door beneath me caved,
Letting me hang, for lying, but the lie was in vain,
And let me hang, for crossing away from my self so far; so far from the true me;
I beg of you, why now do you do such things?
Why did I bear the load,
Why did you not even seem to know?

Yes, some obvious, quite!
Regardless of the lie,
I was self-less, I only cared for your happiness;
Not a word of my own was to be spoken;
And now,
Now you torment me like a martyr,
For making you so happy, like I did.
Please, don't place thy kiss upon my neck,
Or thy hand upon the small of my back.
Why do I voice this now, you lovingly ask;
Because we're nothing more than words upon a page now,
We're not lovers, no way, no how.
Don't wrinkle your brow,
You know why now,
For now, we are just but friends,
Which is better than nothing at all.

So please, don't be confused,
You're not someone I want to lose, fully,
But you're also not someone I want to have and to hold.
So please, don't knock upon my door,
Expecting me to pick your heart up off the floor.

So why now do you start to try again?
There shall never be an "us" again.


The Promise Of Today

I may be unable to see into the future,
But it's still your words that
Make me fumble for my own,
It's still your hand I want to hold.
Forever may not be forever,
If real life gets in the way,
I'm still thankful for the time together.

We've managed to outlast a storm or two,
And we'll try to continue on our way;
And there is no doubt, you'll be in my heart, forever.
Together now is a blessing,
And if reality dons her scornful curse,
Then at least we had the time we did.
I don't regret a thing,
We're not a mere fling,
No, you've made my heart sing.

I may not be able to see if our love,
Our astounding love,
Will outlast our lives,
But I can promise,
You're always going to have a special place
In my heart,
And I will try my hardest to make this work.

It's not going to be easy,
The best things in life never are;
But I want you near, not far.
I promise to strive for us, everyday,
In every single way.
I can't promise forever,
But I can promise today.


^ Two most recent poems.
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Thoughts?