Too Happy?

Have you ever just been..too happy with someone?
Like..you over read into everything, although you know everything is perfectly fine?
You accept; even love them for their flaws. And you love everything they do. It sounds..so cliche and so..fairytale like. But it's more than possible.
It's as if, once you find that happiness, you're so afraid it'll be ripped away, even if you're more positive about it never ending, than you are that you'll still be breathing tomorrow morning. You're acting as if, you don't deserve the happiness...as if you're not good enough
You're acting as if..the long term will eat the present alive..and if you let it become so..your wants and goals..will do that. You'll become so focused on the long term, that you neglect certain things in the now...when really..you should be cherishing the now, and be greatfull you're still able to think of a future. As life isn't a promise, it's more a single thread..stitching through other peoples lives..that can be become knotted..or the thread can begin to fray..then simply snap apart. Why wish away your todays, with your tomorrows?
I tend to read alot into things. It's part of who I am.
No matter how annoying it can be..it's helpful, at times. Other times, it simply tears me apart.I need to take a step outside myself sometimes..breathe in fresh air..and ask my self if this is the girl I really am, and if this is what I really want, now, and for the long term. I think about present and future..and i try not to let my past preoccupy my mind too often.
Anyways. The reason we try to find faults...in those we are so happy with, almost too happy with, is cause we know we have to have some rain, in order to have a rainbow..and you never know if it's the final rainbow..or just the calm before a storm. And you're scared..because you're so much more vunerable..and you're so used to being shelter..behind your own walls, left to your own demise...and now..now you're out, in the open..with eyes upon you. And you're not so sure of yourself anymore.
You may seem insecure, but it's because you're not used to the calmness..you almost need a bit of chaos..to keep you on your toes.
But the stillness is always nice. But not as greatly given to us.

"The broken clock is a comfort...it helps me sleep tonight. Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time."

"And I am still here, waiting. Though I have my doubts, I am damaged at best; Like you've already figured out."

"In the pain, there's healing. In your name, I find meaning. So I'm holding on, holding onto you."


"The broken locks where a warning you got inside my head, I tried my best to be guarded, but I'm an open book instead."

"And i still see your reflection, inside of my eyes, that are looking for purpose; they're still looking for life."

"I'm hanging on another day, Left me here alone. I may have lost my way now, but i haven't forgotten my way home."

^^^
All from one amazing song.
In a way..it goes with this blog post.
Or it does, from my point of view.
The song is:
Broken- Lifehouse.