One False Move; You're All Alone.

Have you ever felt like..hopelessly out of control? I'm not saying you're spirling downward kind of out of control..I'm saying the kind where your dreams and hopes are in someone elses hands..and you want so badly for everything to turn out okay. And you know they will...but you overanalyze almost everything. Where if things change too much...you start worrying you could drift apart from those who do hold your dreams and hopes.
I don't know why I'm like this. I think it's because of the hormonal overflow. That very well could be it.

It's distracting...it's clouding my mind...and making random anger fizz up. I'm sure it just the hormones. Cause I can control my emotions alot better than this.
It's like you're running scared. You so badly want to protect those dreams, wishes and hopes....but yet you want them to be seen, so they can happen. And you're running in every direction.

And the one person...who holds most of them....you analyze too much about them. When really you should just take a deep breath..and stop stressing out...which is a hard thing for me. But it's something I'm learning...and it's kind of helping. I'm trying it right now..but I deffiantly needed to vent.

Things can either change dramatically...or slowly..
And when you finally see that things are changing...it's sort of a wake up to call.
To show you that the world keeps moving....and it doesn't stop...so you better not miss a beat.
People and places change for a reason...but I'm fine with who I am today..and I'm not so happy about who I was a few years back, but in that moment...I was fine with it. So it shows..that you grow up..you mature..you change...your thought processes becomes more advanced...and you get different priorties.


There's been so many times now...that I've been completly content with life; and in that moment...it couldn't get any better. But it always does...but sometimes it gets worse...but I suppose, that it's true. You can't enjoy true happiness, without a bit of pain; just like the sunshine doesn't do any good..if there isnt any rain.
Memories can be cruel in a way...giving you rememberance of the past...things you'll never get back if you've lost them...or reminding you of all the things you've been through...to get here. To remind you of who you are...and what's made you that way. In a way..they are a blessing and a curse.

I'm content with life right now. I'm just restless....I need fresh air. I need to go see Tino..or something.
Luckily I'm going out of town this weekend...so that should do that trick.

And on the whole one false move, you're all alone title...
Think about it.
Some will never forgive you for one mistake....
while others will be more understanding.
What type of people do you want to surround yourself with?

I'll always be there for friends who have been there for me....I give more than I get sometimes...but it's worth it...friendships are worth more than a thousand words...
Romance is too.
And if it's not that crazy, I miss you, even though I just talked to you...can't wait to talk to him...butterflies....silly...amazing..beautiful..cute romance...then it's not worth it...
Because life is too short for anything second class.

Reach for the moon...because even if you fall...you'll be covered in stardust...and someone will still notice you.
Never give up.

On an other note;
I'm thinking about trying to get some of my poetry, and possibly stories...published.....again.
First time it didnt work.
And I haven't been too keen on doing it again..
But some very near and dear people are convincing me.
Yay for those who believe in you <3