Step Back From This Life;; See How We All Intertwine

Today, I had a bit of think time, Or well, my mind made think time. By the time Friday rolls around, I'm tired by the the time schools over. Getting up every morning, and putting all that information into my mind, and the chaos, really can wear you down. But I let my mind run through that process, because I knew I needed just to escape from this choatic world that now wraps me up in it, and just think. I know, to some, my life doesn't seem busy. Early bird everyday, normal school, home, and homework. Then sleep. Mondays I go riding, Thurdays are inspection days, and CIRT days..And then I have notecards and such to do some nights..I could be busier. So i'm glad i'm not soo so so so busy, that i'm just going through the motions. I'm acutally liking school.
So as I was in my old little world, I stepped back from who I am, I sort of looked at my life, from a different view...Is this what I want..? Is this what I'm striving for? Is that what makes me wake up in the mornings? And I sort of smiled to myself..because i never really thought much about my highschool years..I've always been thinking about my life after highschool. But yes, this is what I want,even if I do have to get up early, and I have an extra class...Even if I'm not doing well in debate, [I'm hoping my notecards and my debate plan will raise it..] I'm happy. I've meet so many new people..I've figured out more pieces of me..
I see how we all are intertwined..we all have paths, and some stepping stones, are shared..So even if you think you're all alone on that path..Just remember, someone else has stepped in that place before..and someone else will do so afterwards too..you're never alone in this world, no matter how much you think you are. You are never far from others.
So, I encourage you sometime, to step back from yourself, and see if this life is really what you want...and if it is, see how far you've come..and if it's not...figure out what you can do, to do what you want...and in the end..figure out..how we're all intertwined, our paths winding, and changing. What will you make of yourself?

Songs to reflect to/think about:

• Please Remember Me - Tim McGraw
• These Words- Natasha Beddingfield
• Watching Airplanes- Gary Allen
• Never Too Late- Three Days Grace
• This Is A Call- Thousand Foot Krutch

Quotes:

Am I loud & clear,

or am I breaking up?

Am I still your charm,

or am I just bad luck?

Are we getting closer,

or are we just getting more lost?

Maybe I'm just scared,to face the things I fear.

It's easier to walk away from everything.

And I could see the world in different colors,I'd read it in the air as signals, send them through,but everyone is just a different shade of you.

If you fall in love, fall in love and hold nothing back.

Over the past year, I’ve learned so much about love and life.Even if I could, I would never take back all the things I’ve donethat brought me here, to this moment.

When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story.

Everyone has gone through somethingthat has changed them.

Don't live your life waiting for something to happen.Don't live it in cold-hearted mornings or bitter-sweet graduation days.Don't live it going "why did I do that?"Live so you're happy.Really, truly, flat-out, can't stop smiling happy.Because you deserve it.

She was the girl who dreamed,who saw things how they werebut never really let it get in the way of her wishful thinking. Shelaughed and cried. She lived lifeto the fullest; with no intentionsof ever turning back orregretting anything.

We'd See The Day, When Nobody Died.

So school's okay at the moment. I didnt get to ride Monday, as Robin had a meeting. I got my phone taken away Monday, and I got three dean's detentions, for next week.I wasnt too happy, i was crying in the deans office, because i felt like, I had let my parents down and stuff, and I'm normaly not one to get into trouble. I get it back tomorrow, my dad's going to go pick it up.
Today was half a day, I walked home and talked with my mom with a bit. I tried to get her to let me go to Robin's, I even came up with different ideas on how to get there..I ended up not going. I did however, fall asleep on the couch, watching Project Runaway. Haha, I was sleepy, i dozed off and on for about an hour. I sort of needed it, a longer nap would have been nice, because when I woke up, i had a minor headache still. Oh well, what can you do? Monday, I dont have school, so I'm going to sleep in a bit, then go to Champagn with my parents for a few hours, then to Pekin, to go riding. Last Saturday, was the reception for my cousin, who got married in the Grand Turks And Caios islands over the summer. That was fun. I danced with my dad 3 times ad I danced with the bride and the groom once each.
Here's like, some quotes/poeticish thoughts.

So listen close
I want you to understand
I love you
I really do
I don't say it as a reminder,
I don't say it out of habit
I say it because, you mean so much to me; I say it, because I am blessed by thee,
I say it, because you've become a part of me... [by me!]

Don't worry that pretty little head of yours Dear;
You mustn't fear;
For I am here for you.
Your heart is mine,
And thine is yours.
My ears are always ready to listen
and my eyes are always glistening with happiness,
Because I found you. [by me!]

Keep your head up;
Keep treading that water,
Don't let them see you cling to your dreams,
Be strong little girl,
Keep pushing on...
Believe, and you will conquer all.
Just don't let go,
They want to break you down,
But let this make stronger,
Not make you frown. [by me!]

As the morning sun breaks;
I feel it shine down apoun my face,
Making my hair glisten and my eyes flutter open.
I sigh contently as I awake;
Knowing this isn't fake;
I am happy to be here. [by me]

put my hand in his, and felt his fingers fold over mine, gently leading me to the edge of the floor. i was about to make some joke to lighten things up, but he put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. and suddenly, i didn't feel like talking about anything.

"When I sleep, I dream of you. And when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart."
- Nights in Rondanthe; Nicholas Sparks

If you're willing to chase me,
I promise, I’ll run slow

He says the cutest things to put the pink in my cheeks.

This time it`s different. I don`t even feel the distance; I`m not missing you.

Follow the tugs in your heart. I think that everyone gets these gentle urges and should listen to them.Even if they sound absolutely insane,they may be worth going for


"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."John 8:13

Things don't go wrong and break your heart
so you can become bitter and give up.
They happen to break
you down and
build you up so you
can be all that you
were intended to be.

The future belongs to those who
believe in the beauty of their dreams.

passion is knowing what you want
& never stopping til you have it

Life doesnt always work out how you expect it to
...but if you take a leap,
you might just land somewhere intresting

i don't know if we each have a destiny,
or if we're all floating around
accidental-like on a breeze but i,
i think maybe it's both
. maybe both is happening at the same time
.-Forrest Gump


Cause if you jump I will jump too.
--Skyway Avenue ; We The Kings

She's living up to the expectation
of never letting anything get to her,
but something's wrong with that smile today.
Congratulations, kids. You got to her.

She believed in dreams all right,
but she also believed in doing something about them.
When Prince Charming didn't come along,
she went over to the palace and got him.
^Walt Disney^

Your history can`t be erased, but your future has yet to be written.Make the most of what`s going to happen instead of worrying about what you can`t change. Don`t waste your time being sad, because you`re wasting away moments in which you could be happy.

I believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the ending - we don't.Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in peace that comes from knowing you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way.Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.