Ghost Stories, Friends House, llamas, Alpachas, Royal Horses...OH MY!

So, this has probably been on of the most cultural weekends, i've had in a long time.

Friday night, I went to camp wokanda, and listened to ghost stories and folk tales. It was lovely, I curled up in a blanket under the stars, even though i was like, freezing. I loved being outdoors, and listening to all the stories.



Saturday, I hung out at hoe for a bit, of course I slept in. Then I went to Amanda's. We played games, ate amazing hamburgers, watched Spirit, made smores, and talked about school, and how people have changed and all. I realized now, that she and i, have the same outlook on the retardedness of popularity and labels. We stayed up till 11:30, then we both fell asleep.We were dead tired.

Today, I woke up a times, then when it was time to get up, I had pancakes at Amanda's house. Then came home, showered, and waited. My dad told me, he had a suprise. He wouldnt give me a hint, at all....So when it was time to goo..i kept asking questions. Well, when we were in the car, my mom pulled out a map, and i could read the label.
"Alapcha And Llama Ranch" and i was like "YOUR TAKING ME TO A LLAMA AND ALPACHA RANCH?! OMG WOAH COOL!" I had always seen them on Tv and thought they were cool.
I learned the differeneces and got to cuddle some of them =3 It was awesome.
So then we were driving around, and my phone went off. The caller Id said "CIRT", i was hoping it wasn't Steven, trying to bother me..I answered anyway. To my Suprise, it was Anita =D And she was asking me if I wanted to go see the Lipiziners tonight with CIRT. And I instantly said yes. It was sooooo cool. The dressage was beautiful..I was holding my breath. I was just amazed by it. The horsemanship, the training, the skill...The beauty....It takes sometimes 6-9 years to train them..they wait until they're 4 though. It's just..amazing. They had one Spanish Andalusion, which is beautiful. It natural has a long wavy mane and tail. It did jumps in the air and stuff, and it bowed! The Lipiziners, did like rear jumps and cool formations. It was sooooo cool. I was amazed. It really makes me wanna go see Tino tomorrow xD

Thursday, I got ranked. Everyone's a Cadet Private First Class now, or higher. The first promotion is a given, after that, you have to earn it.

So pretty much, I had more fun then I would have, if I would have went to homecoming.
Yay for amazing weekends. =3

Quotes and such!<3

It's really nice talking to you because
the truth is that I've started to hide
from myself lately.

People should strive to be happy with
who they are and not be obsessed with
how they look.
Beauty is nothing.

But the night rolls around,
and it all starts making sense.
There is no right or wrong way
You just have to live.

And we're not gonna live forever.
Could you tell me is it now or never?

The process of growing up was
nothing more than figuring out
what doors hadn't been slammed
in your face yet.

Every now and then,
you wake up to a
day that affects your whole life.
That day in your life
when you know you'll
never be the same;
the day that changes
the way you think about
everything & everyone.

Hoofbeats Soon Replace My [Hearrtbeat]

So Monday was amazing.
I got there a little early, so I stood by the side of the pasture, and took some pictures. Mariah saw me, and trotted up closer and sort of posed for me.

So when Robin got there, I went into the pasture, and gave them each an apple. Tino and Apache knew i had more, and were pushing me closer to the fence xD They wanted more.

So then I tried to catch Tino, and she ran off, because she saw the halter in my hand.

So Robin got out the feed, and everyone went to the proper barn. After Tino got done eating, I haltered her, and took her out into the round pen, where i had already put the saddle and bridle. After I took some pictures and all, i got on, and rode her around. She was a bit hyper at first, and stubborn. Like always. Then Robin had me take her out in the pasture, like last time. But this time, she told me to walk her around a few times, then canter her across the side pasture. Something she hadn't let me do before. So I went for it, Tino went into a canter, as soon as she felt a bit more pressure and heard my command. About half way down the side pasture, she took off. Cuz we were headed towards the barn, sort of. But. I got her in control, and made her walk to the end, then back up, then I cantered her again and she was better. Robin says I have really good control of her too, I have good reflexes and i get her right away. Robin came over on Mariah and we cantered together as well, then Went out of the pasture, onto this trail. The same one we had been on before. It was nice. I got Tino to walk in time, so I was by Robin most of the time, and we talked again. It's so easy to talk to her. So we walked that trail, and she asked if I wanted to canter the trail back, and I shook my head no. I didnt want Tino to step in the slick mud that was on the side. Nor did i want to chance that happening to Mariah. So we back into the pasture, and Tino thought we were done, so she stopped at the hitching post. Well, we weren't, I took her back into the round pen, and walked her around a bit, to show her, we weren't finished yet. As I was going out of the round pen, I didnt have the door open enough, and Tino slipped around it weird, and my left foot got stuck in a bar. She stopped, and Robin was like "DON'T PANIC!"I was fine, I was calm. xD I had tino back up and it was okay.

So after I got unstuck, we went back into the side pasture and cantered a bit more. Afterwards, I took her over the hitching post, and unsaddled her, but made her keep her bit on. Cuz she's picky, so I left that on the longest and did everything else, then took that off and gave her an apple and released her. She nuzzled me. =3

I didn't wanna leave...At all. Robin and I walked around, picking up the poo, and we talked.

She wants to take me to Sandridge, sometime.

It's a big trail place, but it's all sandy footing, with trees and stuff. She loves it, it's nice.

I'm excited =3

It'd be like an all day thing.

That would be lovely.

She wants to take me to Jubaliee sometime too.

Friday night, I'm going to Camp Wokonda; For The Ghost Story Nights.

Its something I go to every year, i love it.

They normaly have it in the woods, by a big fire.

Saturday, is homecoming, but I'm going to my friends house instead, and I'm going to stay the night there, and Sunday, idk what Im going to do, whatever I feel like.

Monday, School and all that, then Robin's =3

Tomorrow is uniform day, i also get promoted to Cadet Private First Class.

That's a given promotion to all new people. After these, we have to earn them.

Friday, I get out of school, like half an hour early, because of the pep assembly, and you're not required to attend it.

Here's some pictures, Finaly. xD

[Tino is the spotted one, closer to the camera, then Apache, and part of Mariah's leg xD]

[That's me and Apache ]

[Part Of Apache's Face And Tino <3>

[Me On Tino <33]

[Tino And I ]

[Mariah]

^Video I made of all the pictures and such =D

Tino; How i Adore Thee.

So, Monday it was wayy too soggy and muddy to ride. So I had to go riding Wensday. That was good. The ground was still kinda squishy in the pasture, but it was fun.
Tino is who I rode again, I cantered her in the round pen and did some warm ups with her. Then Robin had me take her out in the pasture, while she got Mariah ready for herself. After Robin went behind the barn, to get Mariah, Tino sort of did a few little rears, and I got a little flustered, but I stayed on perfectly fine. Tino bolted once she saw Mariah, and I made her turn in circles to stop her. So after Robin got Mariah ready, I had to take Tino back over this water way, which she was hesitant to go through the first time, I had to urge her through it kindly on the way over to Robin. Then Robin and I went down this gravel road, we rode side by side and we talked. It was lovely. The sun was just warm enough, and there was a slight breeze in certain spots. I saw a few deer, and Robin even trusted me enough to have Tino do a slow canter from one point of this field to an other, while Mariah trotted a bit infront of us. =] Then it was time to walk back to the barn, and Tino was a bit tired, but once she saw Apache, who kept calling out to us. My mom said Apache was calling out the whole time we were gone. He's used to get ridden more then Tino is, cuz there's a girl named Megan, who normaly comes and rides with Robin as well. So once we got close enough to hear Apache, Tino perked right up, and started prancing. It was so cute.
I gave Apache, Tino, Little Girl, and Mariah an apple each. I gave one to Billy, the goat as well. And when Robin and I were riding back to the barn, Robin was talking about how she was amazed I was so good, and that I had such good control over Tino. And she said Tino's my buddy, which means, I'm going to be the one who rides her all the time now, unless Dale is. Which is nice. Dale even said I did good =3 Dale was so pleased when I gave him chocolate sprinkle covered brownies with walnuts and powdered sugar, and some peanut butter cookies. He said he LOVED my chocolate chip cookies, he kept asking for more. Haha. Robin said she only got one, and I put a whole bunch of them in there.
So tomorrow I get to go riding, again =3 I love this routine. I look forward to Mondays now.
My grandma gave me a big bag of horse apples, [ground apples basicaly, ones that have a few bug holes] And i'm going to give those to Robin, to put in the bucket with the other ones.
I acutally woke up this morning, and thought it was Monday. I was all happy, and I started getting dressed, then realized it was only sunday.

I'm going to buy a helmet soon. Not this pay period but next. Because I got a brand new bed on Friday. It's lovely. So my parents get paid every other thursday. Well, my mom gets paid this upcoming thursday, right? So, she wants to pay off my bed, then the next pay period, we're going to order a Troxel Legacy smoke colored helmet, with a black stenciled on horse on the side.
I went to a place yesterday to try on some helmets, to see what size I needed. They had the two helmets before it, and the one after it, but not the style i wanted xD. And it's acutally like 10-25 dollars cheaper, if i directly order it from the Troxel website, cuz the store had them way over priced.

School's going pretty good. I've been singing a solo in choir, and Thursday I laughed the first time, the second time I got super quiet.
Friday, I did it louder, and held the note perfectly, but I needed to be a bit louder, but it was better. Mrs Tummenili asked how high I could so I did the highest note, and held it, and she's like 'Not many freshman can do that, and keep it steady. Wow. That was good"
I have a mulitopic speech I'm working on for my debate class. I acutally like that class. French is going well, so is biology and everything else. Rotc, is phyiscally draining sometimes, but that's because im out of shape. I'll improve, and get better.

I've decided, I'm going to my friend Amanda's house, on Homecoming night. We're going to watch movies, and eat brownies and have fun. We're crazy, but fun =3

I'm going to try to get some pictures of the horses tomorrow.
Oh, I got my barrel racing art prints framed and up, and I got a small pinto flag up now too. My mom also got two decoritve shams done for my room. One is like fake leatherish, with a red band of horseshoes, and a smaller band of horses. Then the other one, is dark brow pasiely and red, with the other side, the fake leather stuff. It's pretty.
We've come up with a pattern, for my queen of the ranch material as well.

Woah, this update is kinda long, but oh well xD
Here's some quotes and such, cuz i feel like ittt. [ -*-] = by me

-*-The minute you think you're going to lose something,
it suddenly becomes the most important thing in your life.
Or the moment you realize you have all you want;;
You want to be stuck in that piece of time
--[Forever]--

You don't know what you do to me,
you don't have a clue,
you don't know what it's like to be me,
looking at you.

One night the moon whispered to her
"If he makes you cry...why don't you leave him?"
So she look up at the moon and said..
."Moon, would you ever leave your sky?"

The best feeling in the world is finally
knowing you took a step in the right direction,
a step towards the future where everything
that you never thought was possible is possible.

I've Got Your [Run Away] Smile In My Piggybank

So, highschool is amazing!

I love it, really do.

Today was the first day I wore my MJROTC uniform, that was cool.

It was acutally kinda comfortable, the belt got annoyingish, but oh well =]

We learned some drill movements, and how to stand.

I had four tests today:

Biology

French

World History

& Alg.

That was fun. -.-

Ahah.

So its supposed to rain all weekend, maybe a good time to curl up with a book?

Monday is supposed to be drier, and nicer. Which is good, cuz I'm supposed to go to Robin's house Monday, right after school; I miss Tino. And I wanna go cuddle Apache and Mariah.

I can just see her face, in my mind, staring at me, as she nuzzled me, wanting a treat, and I know I've only seen her once, but she's got that spunk, that attitude, even the way she carries herself, it reminds me of King, so I like graviated more towards her I guess, even tho King was a male, a grey quater horse, and Tino's a mare, and she's a paint, they still act kinda alike. yeah, I figured that out today, cuz, I was like, Ohh, the way she acts, the way she knows how to calm herself, and how she loves to be challenging. it's like, I know others are like that, but she deffiantly reminded me of king.

So I'm pretty content with life, atm.

It's sort of choas, but i love it.

Here's quotes and icons, ya'll.

Have you ever felt like you were meant for someone? It's like your whole life a huge mess that never stopped getting messier and then suddenly, you didn't feel lost anymore. You felt like everything that you had been doing wrong, you had actually been doing right because that whole time he was becoming closer to you. You just weren't smart enough to know it or brave enough to tell him.

Let your eyes fall to love's embrace.

Forever isn't far, it's coming soon.

Look at all the love around you

.Look at all the love that's found you

Darling, whatta you think you're made of?

if home is where the heart is then my home is where you are.

It's so hard to spend all these days without my heart.

so im going to take you with me.

so if there is ever a time that i should have to leave

then i hope you know im taking you with me.

with every second that goes by is one more second off my life.

it couldn't be more clear, im dying without you here

Maybe it was how cynical she was, or how she found out a long time ago that nothing good stays, but she knew from the first day that their relationship started, it would not end with a clean cut. It would be messy and painful and untimely. This she knew.

[Haha! Love it!]

Now he's calling your house 'cause he wants to hang out and do that thing you do. You're getting overexcited and you can't fight the fact that he's bad news

It's actually pretty amazing when you

love life.

It's something you look forward

to and suddenly who you are and who

your friends are doesn't really matter.

It's what you do that

makes the time special. [So true <3>

New Poem.

Horse Owner

Restricted by my walls,
So closed in;
I'd rather be mucking a stall.
My bones aching for freedom,
For feeling the wind blow in my hair.
My lungs gasping;
wanting the fresh, crisp outdoor air.
My heart lunging,
wanting to hear the hooves of horses as they imprint in the proudly recieving earth.
My eyes stinging,
head spinning from all this need.

As I approach the gate,
I see a lovely little face.
A small smile spreads as you nuzzle up against my hand;
As your owner realizes how joyous I seem.
I play with your long forelock, looking into your eyes;
Feeling your warm breath against me.
Slowly, I exhale
Realizing this is real.

Realizing that your owner is kind enough,
to let me come see you and your friends once a week.
Realizing that your owner sees that love, that passionate fire in my eyes.
She can clearly see I'm in my element,
That I'm content and calm.
She can clearly see, a bit of her, in me.

Oh, I am so thankful for your owner.
For she has given me the gift of happiness,
She has such compassion, such a loving nature.
Truely a horse women is she, for she is letting me be one as well,
With her by myself, I'm sure I can be me.
For she is a loving horse owner,
and I'm a young, passionate,
Horse lover.

Two equestrians that understand the bond between
Mankind and horses,
What else could you need?

Oh, Lovely horse owner, is thee.


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Yes, it's about riding at Robin's, and all that.
I really like Robin.
She's an amazing person.
She got her first horse when she was 38, and she learned everything she knows about horses, by herself, through trial and error.
I've learned from being around barns, and working in them and riding at camp and all.
So, I am lucky, because by the time i get my horse and everything, I'll have lots of knowledge and all. I'll still have stuff to learn, but I'll figure it out.

I'm sort of hoping the next 14 days will go fast for me, I think they will. Highschool is already moving pretty fast.

And hopefuly, my mom will remember the camera this time, or Robin will have one this time xD Cuz, they both didnt have one last time. So yea. =]

~~~~~~

School is acutally pretty good. I'm getting used to getting up so early. I have homework every night so far. I like walking home, but Kendra could always take me home if I wanted, cuz some days, my stuff is just too heavy.
I get my PT Rotc clothes tomorrow, and later on this week, I'll get my boots and my cami's [short for camoflauge uniform].
I really like my debate teacher, tomorrow I have to give a speech on who I am. It's one of my course requirements. I've done all my homework, I want to graudate on time, and do well in school.
I'm striving to acheieve. Even if the only life I have is, doing homework, riding horses, volunteering at CIRT, and singing, then so be it. It soundslike a happy life to me. That's fine. I've never been much into the party, popular scene. So why start now? I won't. I will not let other people get in my way.

I'm sort of like this song:
No Reins - Rascal Flatts

She left that loser in a dust cloud
Heart in his hand, chin on the ground
Cried her last tear for that clown
She can see a little clearer now
She said, "Oh, oh, I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free

CHORUS
Like a painted wild mustang
Flyin' out across the open range
Finally gets to live her life that way
No fear, no fences,
nobody-no reins
No reins

All she's ever felt is held back
She says, "It's kinda nice to hear myself laugh"
She's gonna do a lot more of that
She's makin' plans and makin' tracks
She said, "Oh, oh I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free

Repeat Chorus
Oh, oh she's learnin' how to let go
Oh, oh whichever way the wind blows
Oh, oh she's learnin' how to let go
Repeat Chorus Twice
No reins

But I know when to ask for help, and when to listen, and when to pursue.
I am me, and that's all I'll ever be =D