The weight of these expectations is enough to knock
me to the floor. Give me something tangible; I need
more than words laced with double meaning and
emotions implied inbetween the lines.
The things I thought you never knew about me
were the things I guess you always understood.
Sometimes our hope resembles a fruit tree in
winter. Who would think the branches would
turn green again and blossom, but we hope it,
we know it.
The unreal is more powerful than the real,
because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine
it. Because it's only intangible ideas, beliefs, concepts,
fantasies that last. Stone crumbles, wood rots.
People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a
thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.
Wouldn't it be ironic if at
this very moment you were thinking
of me, as I`m thinking of you?
Change is a funny thing. We are never quite sure
what we are becoming or why. Then one day we look at ourselves
and wonder who we are, and how we got there
silence is pure.
it draws people together because
only those who are comfortable with
each other can sit without speaking.
Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky.
I say this prayer for you tonight because nothing is impossible.
Don’t send me mixed signals. I don’t like the confusion that it brings. I’d rather have the honest truth even if it hurts, because then I won’t be wasting my time depending on false hope to keep me hanging on.
Sometimes you've got no choice. You panic & you find the quickest escape possible, but after you've escaped from everything you start thinking back & realize the choice you made was maybe the wrong one.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
I miss her.
My Partner In Crime
It’s the wind in my hair,
The sun kissing my face;
Feeling so alive in this place.
It’s my heart racing,
The blood pumping through my veins…
The rush of happiness,
As you nudge my arm with your nose…
It’s the smile that sneaks onto my face,
As I put the saddle in place.
The creak of the leather,
As I mount up onto my partner in crime…
The beat of your feet,
As you quickly kick it up into a canter.
The sense of peace,
That fills me as I kiss your forehead;
I never want this feeling to flee,
You’re what I need.
My partner in crime,
She likes to think she can fly,
But when I ride on her back;
I feel like I can too.
She’s got a heart,
The size of Kentucky,
And I’d say, I’m pretty lucky;
That I get to have such a great partnership,
With such an amazing horse.
^^Wrote it about Tino.
I miss her loads.
=/
It’s the wind in my hair,
The sun kissing my face;
Feeling so alive in this place.
It’s my heart racing,
The blood pumping through my veins…
The rush of happiness,
As you nudge my arm with your nose…
It’s the smile that sneaks onto my face,
As I put the saddle in place.
The creak of the leather,
As I mount up onto my partner in crime…
The beat of your feet,
As you quickly kick it up into a canter.
The sense of peace,
That fills me as I kiss your forehead;
I never want this feeling to flee,
You’re what I need.
My partner in crime,
She likes to think she can fly,
But when I ride on her back;
I feel like I can too.
She’s got a heart,
The size of Kentucky,
And I’d say, I’m pretty lucky;
That I get to have such a great partnership,
With such an amazing horse.
^^Wrote it about Tino.
I miss her loads.
=/
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Quotes
you have to understand her passion to
really understand what she's all about.
if you really want her to stick around,
don’t ever let her feel unimportant.
We either make ourselves miserable,
or we make ourselves happy.
The amount of work is the same.
She's strong because she knows what it's like to be weak. She keeps a guard because she knows what it's like to cry herself to sleep.
Music is life and people are notes. That means love is harmony.
And it feels exactly how it feels when you find that really good song, that song that just pulls you in the second it begins to play. And that one really good song, never seems to get old, and you just want it to last forever each time you hear it. It's the song that lifts your spirits and brings you up and just makes you feel all these emotions at once. That's exactly the same feeling you get when you begin falling for someone.
and she loves regardless of everything
that has stained her life. she loves with
everything she has left, & thats beautiful.
You know you're better than that, so put the past behind you. You just gave so much to someone who never really deserved it.
There's a shine in your eyes, & a twinkle in your smile.I should probably let you know, I want you around for awhile
Everyone has a certain part of their lives, where they truly wish they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come. Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life, when they wish everything would juststop. The world would stop turning, & people would stop changing. Because to them, at that time, everything was perfect
For the amount of pain you've suffered
you will get the equal amount of happiness in return
There's nothing - you know - nothing else like music. Nothing that touches us on that, uh, that deep level. Music can open up so many emotions that we didn't know we had. It's the magical thing about musicals, you know, on the stage or on film or whatever. Love songs. They work so well because music touches us, emotionally, where words alone can't.
I'm not great at being patient, but if that's
what it takes to be with you, I'd wait forever.
really understand what she's all about.
if you really want her to stick around,
don’t ever let her feel unimportant.
We either make ourselves miserable,
or we make ourselves happy.
The amount of work is the same.
She's strong because she knows what it's like to be weak. She keeps a guard because she knows what it's like to cry herself to sleep.
Music is life and people are notes. That means love is harmony.
And it feels exactly how it feels when you find that really good song, that song that just pulls you in the second it begins to play. And that one really good song, never seems to get old, and you just want it to last forever each time you hear it. It's the song that lifts your spirits and brings you up and just makes you feel all these emotions at once. That's exactly the same feeling you get when you begin falling for someone.
and she loves regardless of everything
that has stained her life. she loves with
everything she has left, & thats beautiful.
You know you're better than that, so put the past behind you. You just gave so much to someone who never really deserved it.
There's a shine in your eyes, & a twinkle in your smile.I should probably let you know, I want you around for awhile
Everyone has a certain part of their lives, where they truly wish they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come. Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life, when they wish everything would juststop. The world would stop turning, & people would stop changing. Because to them, at that time, everything was perfect
For the amount of pain you've suffered
you will get the equal amount of happiness in return
There's nothing - you know - nothing else like music. Nothing that touches us on that, uh, that deep level. Music can open up so many emotions that we didn't know we had. It's the magical thing about musicals, you know, on the stage or on film or whatever. Love songs. They work so well because music touches us, emotionally, where words alone can't.
I'm not great at being patient, but if that's
what it takes to be with you, I'd wait forever.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Twists And Turns Of A Teenager's Life.
So, I think i might be getting an old friend back. I can only hope and pray. I had the best of times with her...She was there for me, for alot. I could tell her, pretty much anything. We had our own little group of band buddies. Oh, how i miss that.
Maybe God's trying to prove to me, that even if people do wander in and out of your life, He ALWAYS has a plan for you, and to trust in him, even if you can't see it quite clearly yet.
Finals.
Oh boy...Finals.
I have 7 to take, yay for me being an overachiever.
Insane, it is. I'm sort of stressing out about it.
I went to CIRT tonight, and as soon as I pulled out Colonel and started brushing, the stress just washed away. Which was good, I felt like I was going to pull my hair out, strand by strand otherwise.
This weekend, I have to sing and serve at Madigold dinners, I picked to do both nights.
Quotes:
It’s either the bravest thing I have
ever done or the most idiotic. I suddenly
realize how hard it is to tell the difference.
The sweetest sounds I’ll ever hear are still inside my head.
The kindest words I’ll ever know are waiting to be said.
The most entrancing sight of all is yet for me to see.
And the dearest love in all the world is waiting
somewhere for me.
--Cinderella
Worrying is a waste of time, it doesn’t
change anything. It just messes with you
mind and steals your happiness.
Maybe God's trying to prove to me, that even if people do wander in and out of your life, He ALWAYS has a plan for you, and to trust in him, even if you can't see it quite clearly yet.
Finals.
Oh boy...Finals.
I have 7 to take, yay for me being an overachiever.
Insane, it is. I'm sort of stressing out about it.
I went to CIRT tonight, and as soon as I pulled out Colonel and started brushing, the stress just washed away. Which was good, I felt like I was going to pull my hair out, strand by strand otherwise.
This weekend, I have to sing and serve at Madigold dinners, I picked to do both nights.
Quotes:
It’s either the bravest thing I have
ever done or the most idiotic. I suddenly
realize how hard it is to tell the difference.
The sweetest sounds I’ll ever hear are still inside my head.
The kindest words I’ll ever know are waiting to be said.
The most entrancing sight of all is yet for me to see.
And the dearest love in all the world is waiting
somewhere for me.
--Cinderella
Worrying is a waste of time, it doesn’t
change anything. It just messes with you
mind and steals your happiness.
Sometimes you need to step outside,
get some air, and remind yourself of who
you are and where you want to be.
The sun sinks beneath the horizon, and her happiness disappears. Her sun is filling another world with light, bringing life. And she’ll suffocate under darkness, looking for the stars that seem to be hidden so well. Yet even in the darkest, deepest moment in the night, she knows the sun will rise again. {[FAVORITE}}
Admit it. We flirt with each other. We have so much fun with each other. We laugh with each other and we even try to be with each other. And I believe we secretly love each other. But how come when I think of you and wonder if you’re thinking of me, it feels like you aren’t.
I want to say I deserve better & mean it. I want to say I give up & believe it. I want to say I`m moving on & do it.There's a good reason why I'm keeping my distance.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Serenity
Edit:: 11/29/08: I just saw myself on PBS. I was leading Montana, and Strawberry at CIRT. It was an at local glance thing, it was kinda cool. It comes on randomly. =]*
I saw Kaitlin's blog. I thought i'd use her idea xD
Truth #1
I miss you. I still think about you, and wonder how things are for you now. I wish we could still be friends, but you made no move to contact me after i left..but i never tried to either..I figured you were upset with me. I miss you, and I'm sorry.
Fact #1
I love chocolate, it's like a bandaid for anything hurting
Truth#2
I wish you would still talk to me. I wish you wouldn't judge me, because I don't still go to that place were we first met. I thought you weren't so judgement. I guess places and time, change people you once thought you knew. I was young then, I still am, I was more naive then too. I only wish we would have kept in contact, like we swore up and down, we would.
Fact #2
Time can change any, and everything. This is something I've come to know.
Truth #3
I envy people too much. I hate it. I wish i could be totally content with what I am, with what I have, but I can't. At times, I can, but othertimes, I'm totally wanting. But it's part of being human.
Fact #3
I try not to cry too much, I know, it's crazy. That i need to get those emotions out, and if i do cry, it's in front of good friends, or by myself in my room.
Truth#4
I need to stay connected with God. I'm trying. I really am. This new church, seems quiet promising. I feel more..warmth, not so empty either.
Fact#4
I am afraid to let go of my..standards I guess..
I'm afraid to dance infront of people. I guess, I can get quiet shy at times. It's annoying, at times.
Truth#5
I sometimes wonder who I am. Why I'm here. What my purpose is. But othertimes, I realize it's to be here, to help others, to find a niche`. To help the riders at CIRT, to make a name for myself..But sometimes, I wonder if that's ever enough.
Fact#5
Music is like a drug for me, It says the words I cannot say.
Truth#6
I'm very insecure sometimes. But otherdays, I'm confident, and I know how to do what I need to do. Human nature is quiet odd.
Fact #6
I have really deep thoughts at times.
I have layers to myself, you can't figure me out right away.
You can tell, by some of my thoughts, that I do not normaly act my age.
Truth#7
I worry I won't get the job I want; I stress over it. I try hard at school. I do not want to be stuck in some horrible job, 15 years from now, and already miserable. That's not what I want, at all.
Fact#7
I have back-up ideas incase, i cannot get the job i would like.
Truth #8
It's way easier for me, to write down my feelings and thoughts, in poetry, and in pretty little paragraphs, then it ever has been, to say it.
Fact #8
I say things I later regret when I'm upset/angry.
So, yesterday was rather stressful. We brought grandpa home, andit was hard seeing him. He's so small and frail now. Nothing like the jolly, Mr. Fix it, I once knew. Not the same grandpa I would run to when I had scraped my knee, not the same grandpa I had once sat in the basement with, and watched him construct things.
He didn't know me. Or my uncle, who drove up from Texas.
I couldn't understand him.
It made my heartache.
I plan on going to Richwoods this weekend, I did last weekend as well.
Fireflight;; Serenity
The light behind your eyes
Tells me that you've cried
Sometime tonight
I offer down My hand
But without your plans
You cannot hide
The white snow falls (I cannot see)
On my black heart (In front of me)
Say it to me in a way that I can understand
I hear You call (Loud and clear)
It melts my heart (Take my fear)
Show me how to see the love that brings serenity
I'm pouring out My love
Open up your hands
Not big enough
You tried to do it all
It's time for you to fall
You've done enough
The white snow falls (I cannot see)
On my black heart (In front of me)
Say it to me in a way that I can understand
I hear You call (Loud and clear)
It melts my heart (Take my fear)
Show me how to see the love that brings serenity
[Background:] Loud and clear,Take my fear (2x)
Oh my God I've worked so farI've gotten nowhere
The white snow falls (I cannot see)
On my black heart (In front of me)
Say it to me in a way that I can understand
I hear You call (Loud and clear)
It melts my heart (Take my fear)
Show me how to see the love that brings serenity
Quote of the week:
The sooner you realize things will never be the same, the sooner you can move on.
I saw Kaitlin's blog. I thought i'd use her idea xD
Truth #1
I miss you. I still think about you, and wonder how things are for you now. I wish we could still be friends, but you made no move to contact me after i left..but i never tried to either..I figured you were upset with me. I miss you, and I'm sorry.
Fact #1
I love chocolate, it's like a bandaid for anything hurting
Truth#2
I wish you would still talk to me. I wish you wouldn't judge me, because I don't still go to that place were we first met. I thought you weren't so judgement. I guess places and time, change people you once thought you knew. I was young then, I still am, I was more naive then too. I only wish we would have kept in contact, like we swore up and down, we would.
Fact #2
Time can change any, and everything. This is something I've come to know.
Truth #3
I envy people too much. I hate it. I wish i could be totally content with what I am, with what I have, but I can't. At times, I can, but othertimes, I'm totally wanting. But it's part of being human.
Fact #3
I try not to cry too much, I know, it's crazy. That i need to get those emotions out, and if i do cry, it's in front of good friends, or by myself in my room.
Truth#4
I need to stay connected with God. I'm trying. I really am. This new church, seems quiet promising. I feel more..warmth, not so empty either.
Fact#4
I am afraid to let go of my..standards I guess..
I'm afraid to dance infront of people. I guess, I can get quiet shy at times. It's annoying, at times.
Truth#5
I sometimes wonder who I am. Why I'm here. What my purpose is. But othertimes, I realize it's to be here, to help others, to find a niche`. To help the riders at CIRT, to make a name for myself..But sometimes, I wonder if that's ever enough.
Fact#5
Music is like a drug for me, It says the words I cannot say.
Truth#6
I'm very insecure sometimes. But otherdays, I'm confident, and I know how to do what I need to do. Human nature is quiet odd.
Fact #6
I have really deep thoughts at times.
I have layers to myself, you can't figure me out right away.
You can tell, by some of my thoughts, that I do not normaly act my age.
Truth#7
I worry I won't get the job I want; I stress over it. I try hard at school. I do not want to be stuck in some horrible job, 15 years from now, and already miserable. That's not what I want, at all.
Fact#7
I have back-up ideas incase, i cannot get the job i would like.
Truth #8
It's way easier for me, to write down my feelings and thoughts, in poetry, and in pretty little paragraphs, then it ever has been, to say it.
Fact #8
I say things I later regret when I'm upset/angry.
So, yesterday was rather stressful. We brought grandpa home, andit was hard seeing him. He's so small and frail now. Nothing like the jolly, Mr. Fix it, I once knew. Not the same grandpa I would run to when I had scraped my knee, not the same grandpa I had once sat in the basement with, and watched him construct things.
He didn't know me. Or my uncle, who drove up from Texas.
I couldn't understand him.
It made my heartache.
I plan on going to Richwoods this weekend, I did last weekend as well.
Fireflight;; Serenity
The light behind your eyes
Tells me that you've cried
Sometime tonight
I offer down My hand
But without your plans
You cannot hide
The white snow falls (I cannot see)
On my black heart (In front of me)
Say it to me in a way that I can understand
I hear You call (Loud and clear)
It melts my heart (Take my fear)
Show me how to see the love that brings serenity
I'm pouring out My love
Open up your hands
Not big enough
You tried to do it all
It's time for you to fall
You've done enough
The white snow falls (I cannot see)
On my black heart (In front of me)
Say it to me in a way that I can understand
I hear You call (Loud and clear)
It melts my heart (Take my fear)
Show me how to see the love that brings serenity
[Background:] Loud and clear,Take my fear (2x)
Oh my God I've worked so farI've gotten nowhere
The white snow falls (I cannot see)
On my black heart (In front of me)
Say it to me in a way that I can understand
I hear You call (Loud and clear)
It melts my heart (Take my fear)
Show me how to see the love that brings serenity
Quote of the week:
The sooner you realize things will never be the same, the sooner you can move on.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I Still Believe.
I went to church today. I went to a new youth group. Yes, I know. Shocking, sort of, isn't it? I had been searching for one, I came across one, called Richwoods Christian Church, I emailed the Youth Pastor a few times. I went in today, and the Senior Pastor greated us, then I introduced myself to Joel, the Youth one. He showed my mom and I around. It's a nice church, it's not too big and not too small. We had a great dicusion on dating, sex, and modesty. Katelyn, this girl was super nice, and made sure to keep me in the group. She invited me out to lunch, but I couldnt go, because my mom didn't have any money. I felt...lighter after leaving. I'm going back next Sunday hopefuly. They had discussion groups tonight, but I didnt go, If I stick around, I might start going to those groups.
I have to say, I'm glad I decided to look this all up; In a way, I've needed this. I've needed to reconnect. I need God. We all do.
My faith is coming back, I can feel the fire start again; I'm learning to pray again, I'm learning to be who i need to be..
Here's a song.
I Still Believe--Jeremy Camp
Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
Seems I don't know where to start
But its now I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain
I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see I still believe
Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain
The only place I can go is into your arms
Where I throw to you my feeble prayers in brokeness
I can see that this is your will for me
Help me to know you are near
Quotes and such <3
You gotta step forward,or you’ll always be in the same place.
Let go of what kills you, hold onto what keeps you breathing.
If you want what you've never had,you have to do what you've never done.
Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes the personyou want the most is the person you're best without.
Most people don`t know who they are.That`s why they lie. They`re afraid someone else will figure it out before they do.
He lives in ALL of our souls <3
Peace, Love, Coffee;;
Lizzie
Monday, November 10, 2008
Ball; Goodbye Fall;
So, Friday was the marine corps ball.I slept in, went to the Panache` cafe with some of my french buddies, so we could work on our project.
Then i came home, relaxed for a bit, then showered, got all pretty, took some pictures, then went to the ball.
The ceremony was rather interesting,i enjoyed it. Tiffany almost knocked me out of attention stance though xD
Then we went into the terrazo, we had cake, soda, chips, and sandwhiches. After we had a bit to eat, the DJ struck up some music, Tiffany and I listened for a bit, and she went out to dance. Now, I can't dance. Well. I couldnt xD We slow danced for a bit, then i sat down, and watched her dance. She came over after a song, and pulled me up. She said I looked miserable, and that i needed to dance. She taught me how to dance, and once i let go of my whole "I don't wanna make a fool out of myself" thoughts, I had even more fun. We danced for awhile, it was fun. Master Gunnery even got into it. The ball was amazing, after I let go, i had sooo much fun. I'm thankful Tiffany is my friend and made me do that. I'm deffiantly going to go next year too.
Today was the last 'Weekly" ride for me and Tino. Since we set the clocks back an hour, it gets dark really soon ,and it's getting colder, really fast.
So, Monday nights are kinda hard to do now, and not be rushed. Robin and I decided, that if on the weekends, it's nice, I'll call, then come out and ride. That sounds good to me, but I'm kinda sad. I won't get to see Tino as much. Ah well, soon, Spring willbe here, and I will get to see her even more =D Then showmanship will roll around again and all.
School's okay, busy, as always.
Quotes:
I'm a sucker for the sweet talkers,
the ones that treat me right. The ones
that call randomly or just to say goodnight.
The ones that challenge me and make me
face my fears.
We do not get unlimited chances at the
things we want. Nothing its worse than missing
an oppurtunity that could have changed your
life.
I'm a survivor. I'm getting older and
wiser. I'm gonna live now and nothing
can change my mind.
Then i came home, relaxed for a bit, then showered, got all pretty, took some pictures, then went to the ball.
The ceremony was rather interesting,i enjoyed it. Tiffany almost knocked me out of attention stance though xD
Then we went into the terrazo, we had cake, soda, chips, and sandwhiches. After we had a bit to eat, the DJ struck up some music, Tiffany and I listened for a bit, and she went out to dance. Now, I can't dance. Well. I couldnt xD We slow danced for a bit, then i sat down, and watched her dance. She came over after a song, and pulled me up. She said I looked miserable, and that i needed to dance. She taught me how to dance, and once i let go of my whole "I don't wanna make a fool out of myself" thoughts, I had even more fun. We danced for awhile, it was fun. Master Gunnery even got into it. The ball was amazing, after I let go, i had sooo much fun. I'm thankful Tiffany is my friend and made me do that. I'm deffiantly going to go next year too.
Today was the last 'Weekly" ride for me and Tino. Since we set the clocks back an hour, it gets dark really soon ,and it's getting colder, really fast.
So, Monday nights are kinda hard to do now, and not be rushed. Robin and I decided, that if on the weekends, it's nice, I'll call, then come out and ride. That sounds good to me, but I'm kinda sad. I won't get to see Tino as much. Ah well, soon, Spring willbe here, and I will get to see her even more =D Then showmanship will roll around again and all.
School's okay, busy, as always.
Quotes:
I'm a sucker for the sweet talkers,
the ones that treat me right. The ones
that call randomly or just to say goodnight.
The ones that challenge me and make me
face my fears.
We do not get unlimited chances at the
things we want. Nothing its worse than missing
an oppurtunity that could have changed your
life.
I'm a survivor. I'm getting older and
wiser. I'm gonna live now and nothing
can change my mind.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Step Back From This Life;; See How We All Intertwine
Today, I had a bit of think time, Or well, my mind made think time. By the time Friday rolls around, I'm tired by the the time schools over. Getting up every morning, and putting all that information into my mind, and the chaos, really can wear you down. But I let my mind run through that process, because I knew I needed just to escape from this choatic world that now wraps me up in it, and just think. I know, to some, my life doesn't seem busy. Early bird everyday, normal school, home, and homework. Then sleep. Mondays I go riding, Thurdays are inspection days, and CIRT days..And then I have notecards and such to do some nights..I could be busier. So i'm glad i'm not soo so so so busy, that i'm just going through the motions. I'm acutally liking school.
So as I was in my old little world, I stepped back from who I am, I sort of looked at my life, from a different view...Is this what I want..? Is this what I'm striving for? Is that what makes me wake up in the mornings? And I sort of smiled to myself..because i never really thought much about my highschool years..I've always been thinking about my life after highschool. But yes, this is what I want,even if I do have to get up early, and I have an extra class...Even if I'm not doing well in debate, [I'm hoping my notecards and my debate plan will raise it..] I'm happy. I've meet so many new people..I've figured out more pieces of me..
I see how we all are intertwined..we all have paths, and some stepping stones, are shared..So even if you think you're all alone on that path..Just remember, someone else has stepped in that place before..and someone else will do so afterwards too..you're never alone in this world, no matter how much you think you are. You are never far from others.
So, I encourage you sometime, to step back from yourself, and see if this life is really what you want...and if it is, see how far you've come..and if it's not...figure out what you can do, to do what you want...and in the end..figure out..how we're all intertwined, our paths winding, and changing. What will you make of yourself?
Songs to reflect to/think about:
So as I was in my old little world, I stepped back from who I am, I sort of looked at my life, from a different view...Is this what I want..? Is this what I'm striving for? Is that what makes me wake up in the mornings? And I sort of smiled to myself..because i never really thought much about my highschool years..I've always been thinking about my life after highschool. But yes, this is what I want,even if I do have to get up early, and I have an extra class...Even if I'm not doing well in debate, [I'm hoping my notecards and my debate plan will raise it..] I'm happy. I've meet so many new people..I've figured out more pieces of me..
I see how we all are intertwined..we all have paths, and some stepping stones, are shared..So even if you think you're all alone on that path..Just remember, someone else has stepped in that place before..and someone else will do so afterwards too..you're never alone in this world, no matter how much you think you are. You are never far from others.
So, I encourage you sometime, to step back from yourself, and see if this life is really what you want...and if it is, see how far you've come..and if it's not...figure out what you can do, to do what you want...and in the end..figure out..how we're all intertwined, our paths winding, and changing. What will you make of yourself?
Songs to reflect to/think about:
- Please Remember Me - Tim McGraw
- These Words- Natasha Beddingfield
- Watching Airplanes- Gary Allen
- Never Too Late- Three Days Grace
- This Is A Call- Thousand Foot Krutch
Quotes:
Am I loud & clear,
or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm,
or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer,
or are we just getting more lost?
Maybe I'm just scared,to face the things I fear.
It's easier to walk away from everything.
And I could see the world in different colors,I'd read it in the air as signals, send them through,but everyone is just a different shade of you.
If you fall in love, fall in love and hold nothing back.
Over the past year, I’ve learned so much about love and life.Even if I could, I would never take back all the things I’ve donethat brought me here, to this moment.
When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story.
Everyone has gone through somethingthat has changed them.
Don't live your life waiting for something to happen.Don't live it in cold-hearted mornings or bitter-sweet graduation days.Don't live it going "why did I do that?"Live so you're happy.Really, truly, flat-out, can't stop smiling happy.Because you deserve it.
She was the girl who dreamed,who saw things how they werebut never really let it get in the way of her wishful thinking. Shelaughed and cried. She lived lifeto the fullest; with no intentionsof ever turning back orregretting anything.
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
We'd See The Day, When Nobody Died.
So school's okay at the moment. I didnt get to ride Monday, as Robin had a meeting. I got my phone taken away Monday, and I got three dean's detentions, for next week.I wasnt too happy, i was crying in the deans office, because i felt like, I had let my parents down and stuff, and I'm normaly not one to get into trouble. I get it back tomorrow, my dad's going to go pick it up.
Today was half a day, I walked home and talked with my mom with a bit. I tried to get her to let me go to Robin's, I even came up with different ideas on how to get there..I ended up not going. I did however, fall asleep on the couch, watching Project Runaway. Haha, I was sleepy, i dozed off and on for about an hour. I sort of needed it, a longer nap would have been nice, because when I woke up, i had a minor headache still. Oh well, what can you do? Monday, I dont have school, so I'm going to sleep in a bit, then go to Champagn with my parents for a few hours, then to Pekin, to go riding. Last Saturday, was the reception for my cousin, who got married in the Grand Turks And Caios islands over the summer. That was fun. I danced with my dad 3 times ad I danced with the bride and the groom once each.
Here's like, some quotes/poeticish thoughts.
So listen close
I want you to understand
I love you
I really do
I don't say it as a reminder,
I don't say it out of habit
I say it because, you mean so much to me; I say it, because I am blessed by thee,
I say it, because you've become a part of me... [by me!]
Don't worry that pretty little head of yours Dear;
You mustn't fear;
For I am here for you.
Your heart is mine,
And thine is yours.
My ears are always ready to listen
and my eyes are always glistening with happiness,
Because I found you. [by me!]
Keep your head up;
Keep treading that water,
Don't let them see you cling to your dreams,
Be strong little girl,
Keep pushing on...
Believe, and you will conquer all.
Just don't let go,
They want to break you down,
But let this make stronger,
Not make you frown. [by me!]
As the morning sun breaks;
I feel it shine down apoun my face,
Making my hair glisten and my eyes flutter open.
I sigh contently as I awake;
Knowing this isn't fake;
I am happy to be here. [by me]
put my hand in his, and felt his fingers fold over mine, gently leading me to the edge of the floor. i was about to make some joke to lighten things up, but he put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. and suddenly, i didn't feel like talking about anything.
"When I sleep, I dream of you. And when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart."
- Nights in Rondanthe; Nicholas Sparks
If you're willing to chase me,
I promise, I’ll run slow
He says the cutest things to put the pink in my cheeks.
This time it`s different. I don`t even feel the distance; I`m not missing you.
Follow the tugs in your heart. I think that everyone gets these gentle urges and should listen to them.Even if they sound absolutely insane,they may be worth going for
"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."John 8:13
Today was half a day, I walked home and talked with my mom with a bit. I tried to get her to let me go to Robin's, I even came up with different ideas on how to get there..I ended up not going. I did however, fall asleep on the couch, watching Project Runaway. Haha, I was sleepy, i dozed off and on for about an hour. I sort of needed it, a longer nap would have been nice, because when I woke up, i had a minor headache still. Oh well, what can you do? Monday, I dont have school, so I'm going to sleep in a bit, then go to Champagn with my parents for a few hours, then to Pekin, to go riding. Last Saturday, was the reception for my cousin, who got married in the Grand Turks And Caios islands over the summer. That was fun. I danced with my dad 3 times ad I danced with the bride and the groom once each.
Here's like, some quotes/poeticish thoughts.
So listen close
I want you to understand
I love you
I really do
I don't say it as a reminder,
I don't say it out of habit
I say it because, you mean so much to me; I say it, because I am blessed by thee,
I say it, because you've become a part of me... [by me!]
Don't worry that pretty little head of yours Dear;
You mustn't fear;
For I am here for you.
Your heart is mine,
And thine is yours.
My ears are always ready to listen
and my eyes are always glistening with happiness,
Because I found you. [by me!]
Keep your head up;
Keep treading that water,
Don't let them see you cling to your dreams,
Be strong little girl,
Keep pushing on...
Believe, and you will conquer all.
Just don't let go,
They want to break you down,
But let this make stronger,
Not make you frown. [by me!]
As the morning sun breaks;
I feel it shine down apoun my face,
Making my hair glisten and my eyes flutter open.
I sigh contently as I awake;
Knowing this isn't fake;
I am happy to be here. [by me]
put my hand in his, and felt his fingers fold over mine, gently leading me to the edge of the floor. i was about to make some joke to lighten things up, but he put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. and suddenly, i didn't feel like talking about anything.
"When I sleep, I dream of you. And when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart."
- Nights in Rondanthe; Nicholas Sparks
If you're willing to chase me,
I promise, I’ll run slow
He says the cutest things to put the pink in my cheeks.
This time it`s different. I don`t even feel the distance; I`m not missing you.
Follow the tugs in your heart. I think that everyone gets these gentle urges and should listen to them.Even if they sound absolutely insane,they may be worth going for
"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."John 8:13
Friday, October 03, 2008
Things don't go wrong and break your heart
so you can become bitter and give up.
They happen to break
you down and
build you up so you
can be all that you
were intended to be.
The future belongs to those who
believe in the beauty of their dreams.
passion is knowing what you want
& never stopping til you have it
Life doesnt always work out how you expect it to
...but if you take a leap,
you might just land somewhere intresting
i don't know if we each have a destiny,
or if we're all floating around
accidental-like on a breeze but i,
i think maybe it's both
. maybe both is happening at the same time
.-Forrest Gump
Cause if you jump I will jump too.
--Skyway Avenue ; We The Kings
She's living up to the expectation
of never letting anything get to her,
but something's wrong with that smile today.
Congratulations, kids. You got to her.
She believed in dreams all right,
but she also believed in doing something about them.
When Prince Charming didn't come along,
she went over to the palace and got him.
^Walt Disney^
Your history can`t be erased, but your future has yet to be written.Make the most of what`s going to happen instead of worrying about what you can`t change. Don`t waste your time being sad, because you`re wasting away moments in which you could be happy.
I believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the ending - we don't.Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in peace that comes from knowing you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way.Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.
so you can become bitter and give up.
They happen to break
you down and
build you up so you
can be all that you
were intended to be.
The future belongs to those who
believe in the beauty of their dreams.
passion is knowing what you want
& never stopping til you have it
Life doesnt always work out how you expect it to
...but if you take a leap,
you might just land somewhere intresting
i don't know if we each have a destiny,
or if we're all floating around
accidental-like on a breeze but i,
i think maybe it's both
. maybe both is happening at the same time
.-Forrest Gump
Cause if you jump I will jump too.
--Skyway Avenue ; We The Kings
She's living up to the expectation
of never letting anything get to her,
but something's wrong with that smile today.
Congratulations, kids. You got to her.
She believed in dreams all right,
but she also believed in doing something about them.
When Prince Charming didn't come along,
she went over to the palace and got him.
^Walt Disney^
Your history can`t be erased, but your future has yet to be written.Make the most of what`s going to happen instead of worrying about what you can`t change. Don`t waste your time being sad, because you`re wasting away moments in which you could be happy.
I believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the ending - we don't.Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in peace that comes from knowing you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way.Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Ghost Stories, Friends House, llamas, Alpachas, Royal Horses...OH MY!
So, this has probably been on of the most cultural weekends, i've had in a long time.
Friday night, I went to camp wokanda, and listened to ghost stories and folk tales. It was lovely, I curled up in a blanket under the stars, even though i was like, freezing. I loved being outdoors, and listening to all the stories.
Saturday, I hung out at hoe for a bit, of course I slept in. Then I went to Amanda's. We played games, ate amazing hamburgers, watched Spirit, made smores, and talked about school, and how people have changed and all. I realized now, that she and i, have the same outlook on the retardedness of popularity and labels. We stayed up till 11:30, then we both fell asleep.We were dead tired.
Today, I woke up a times, then when it was time to get up, I had pancakes at Amanda's house. Then came home, showered, and waited. My dad told me, he had a suprise. He wouldnt give me a hint, at all....So when it was time to goo..i kept asking questions. Well, when we were in the car, my mom pulled out a map, and i could read the label.
"Alapcha And Llama Ranch" and i was like "YOUR TAKING ME TO A LLAMA AND ALPACHA RANCH?! OMG WOAH COOL!" I had always seen them on Tv and thought they were cool.
I learned the differeneces and got to cuddle some of them =3 It was awesome.
So then we were driving around, and my phone went off. The caller Id said "CIRT", i was hoping it wasn't Steven, trying to bother me..I answered anyway. To my Suprise, it was Anita =D And she was asking me if I wanted to go see the Lipiziners tonight with CIRT. And I instantly said yes. It was sooooo cool. The dressage was beautiful..I was holding my breath. I was just amazed by it. The horsemanship, the training, the skill...The beauty....It takes sometimes 6-9 years to train them..they wait until they're 4 though. It's just..amazing. They had one Spanish Andalusion, which is beautiful. It natural has a long wavy mane and tail. It did jumps in the air and stuff, and it bowed! The Lipiziners, did like rear jumps and cool formations. It was sooooo cool. I was amazed. It really makes me wanna go see Tino tomorrow xD
Thursday, I got ranked. Everyone's a Cadet Private First Class now, or higher. The first promotion is a given, after that, you have to earn it.
So pretty much, I had more fun then I would have, if I would have went to homecoming.
Yay for amazing weekends. =3
Quotes and such!<3
It's really nice talking to you because
the truth is that I've started to hide
from myself lately.
People should strive to be happy with
who they are and not be obsessed with
how they look.
Beauty is nothing.
But the night rolls around,
and it all starts making sense.
There is no right or wrong way
You just have to live.
And we're not gonna live forever.
Could you tell me is it now or never?
The process of growing up was
nothing more than figuring out
what doors hadn't been slammed
in your face yet.
Every now and then,
you wake up to a
day that affects your whole life.
That day in your life
when you know you'll
never be the same;
the day that changes
the way you think about
everything & everyone.
Friday night, I went to camp wokanda, and listened to ghost stories and folk tales. It was lovely, I curled up in a blanket under the stars, even though i was like, freezing. I loved being outdoors, and listening to all the stories.
Saturday, I hung out at hoe for a bit, of course I slept in. Then I went to Amanda's. We played games, ate amazing hamburgers, watched Spirit, made smores, and talked about school, and how people have changed and all. I realized now, that she and i, have the same outlook on the retardedness of popularity and labels. We stayed up till 11:30, then we both fell asleep.We were dead tired.
Today, I woke up a times, then when it was time to get up, I had pancakes at Amanda's house. Then came home, showered, and waited. My dad told me, he had a suprise. He wouldnt give me a hint, at all....So when it was time to goo..i kept asking questions. Well, when we were in the car, my mom pulled out a map, and i could read the label.
"Alapcha And Llama Ranch" and i was like "YOUR TAKING ME TO A LLAMA AND ALPACHA RANCH?! OMG WOAH COOL!" I had always seen them on Tv and thought they were cool.
I learned the differeneces and got to cuddle some of them =3 It was awesome.
So then we were driving around, and my phone went off. The caller Id said "CIRT", i was hoping it wasn't Steven, trying to bother me..I answered anyway. To my Suprise, it was Anita =D And she was asking me if I wanted to go see the Lipiziners tonight with CIRT. And I instantly said yes. It was sooooo cool. The dressage was beautiful..I was holding my breath. I was just amazed by it. The horsemanship, the training, the skill...The beauty....It takes sometimes 6-9 years to train them..they wait until they're 4 though. It's just..amazing. They had one Spanish Andalusion, which is beautiful. It natural has a long wavy mane and tail. It did jumps in the air and stuff, and it bowed! The Lipiziners, did like rear jumps and cool formations. It was sooooo cool. I was amazed. It really makes me wanna go see Tino tomorrow xD
Thursday, I got ranked. Everyone's a Cadet Private First Class now, or higher. The first promotion is a given, after that, you have to earn it.
So pretty much, I had more fun then I would have, if I would have went to homecoming.
Yay for amazing weekends. =3
Quotes and such!<3
It's really nice talking to you because
the truth is that I've started to hide
from myself lately.
People should strive to be happy with
who they are and not be obsessed with
how they look.
Beauty is nothing.
But the night rolls around,
and it all starts making sense.
There is no right or wrong way
You just have to live.
And we're not gonna live forever.
Could you tell me is it now or never?
The process of growing up was
nothing more than figuring out
what doors hadn't been slammed
in your face yet.
Every now and then,
you wake up to a
day that affects your whole life.
That day in your life
when you know you'll
never be the same;
the day that changes
the way you think about
everything & everyone.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Hoofbeats Soon Replace My [Hearrtbeat]
So Monday was amazing.
I got there a little early, so I stood by the side of the pasture, and took some pictures. Mariah saw me, and trotted up closer and sort of posed for me.
I got there a little early, so I stood by the side of the pasture, and took some pictures. Mariah saw me, and trotted up closer and sort of posed for me.
So when Robin got there, I went into the pasture, and gave them each an apple. Tino and Apache knew i had more, and were pushing me closer to the fence xD They wanted more.
So then I tried to catch Tino, and she ran off, because she saw the halter in my hand.
So Robin got out the feed, and everyone went to the proper barn. After Tino got done eating, I haltered her, and took her out into the round pen, where i had already put the saddle and bridle. After I took some pictures and all, i got on, and rode her around. She was a bit hyper at first, and stubborn. Like always. Then Robin had me take her out in the pasture, like last time. But this time, she told me to walk her around a few times, then canter her across the side pasture. Something she hadn't let me do before. So I went for it, Tino went into a canter, as soon as she felt a bit more pressure and heard my command. About half way down the side pasture, she took off. Cuz we were headed towards the barn, sort of. But. I got her in control, and made her walk to the end, then back up, then I cantered her again and she was better. Robin says I have really good control of her too, I have good reflexes and i get her right away. Robin came over on Mariah and we cantered together as well, then Went out of the pasture, onto this trail. The same one we had been on before. It was nice. I got Tino to walk in time, so I was by Robin most of the time, and we talked again. It's so easy to talk to her. So we walked that trail, and she asked if I wanted to canter the trail back, and I shook my head no. I didnt want Tino to step in the slick mud that was on the side. Nor did i want to chance that happening to Mariah. So we back into the pasture, and Tino thought we were done, so she stopped at the hitching post. Well, we weren't, I took her back into the round pen, and walked her around a bit, to show her, we weren't finished yet. As I was going out of the round pen, I didnt have the door open enough, and Tino slipped around it weird, and my left foot got stuck in a bar. She stopped, and Robin was like "DON'T PANIC!"I was fine, I was calm. xD I had tino back up and it was okay.
So after I got unstuck, we went back into the side pasture and cantered a bit more. Afterwards, I took her over the hitching post, and unsaddled her, but made her keep her bit on. Cuz she's picky, so I left that on the longest and did everything else, then took that off and gave her an apple and released her. She nuzzled me. =3
I didn't wanna leave...At all. Robin and I walked around, picking up the poo, and we talked.
She wants to take me to Sandridge, sometime.
It's a big trail place, but it's all sandy footing, with trees and stuff. She loves it, it's nice.
I'm excited =3
It'd be like an all day thing.
That would be lovely.
She wants to take me to Jubaliee sometime too.
Friday night, I'm going to Camp Wokonda; For The Ghost Story Nights.
Its something I go to every year, i love it.
They normaly have it in the woods, by a big fire.
Saturday, is homecoming, but I'm going to my friends house instead, and I'm going to stay the night there, and Sunday, idk what Im going to do, whatever I feel like.
Monday, School and all that, then Robin's =3
Tomorrow is uniform day, i also get promoted to Cadet Private First Class.
That's a given promotion to all new people. After these, we have to earn them.
Friday, I get out of school, like half an hour early, because of the pep assembly, and you're not required to attend it.
Here's some pictures, Finaly. xD
[Tino is the spotted one, closer to the camera, then Apache, and part of Mariah's leg xD]
[That's me and Apache ]
[Part Of Apache's Face And Tino <3>
[Me On Tino <33]
[Tino And I ]
[Mariah]
^Video I made of all the pictures and such =D
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Tino; How i Adore Thee.
So, Monday it was wayy too soggy and muddy to ride. So I had to go riding Wensday. That was good. The ground was still kinda squishy in the pasture, but it was fun.
Tino is who I rode again, I cantered her in the round pen and did some warm ups with her. Then Robin had me take her out in the pasture, while she got Mariah ready for herself. After Robin went behind the barn, to get Mariah, Tino sort of did a few little rears, and I got a little flustered, but I stayed on perfectly fine. Tino bolted once she saw Mariah, and I made her turn in circles to stop her. So after Robin got Mariah ready, I had to take Tino back over this water way, which she was hesitant to go through the first time, I had to urge her through it kindly on the way over to Robin. Then Robin and I went down this gravel road, we rode side by side and we talked. It was lovely. The sun was just warm enough, and there was a slight breeze in certain spots. I saw a few deer, and Robin even trusted me enough to have Tino do a slow canter from one point of this field to an other, while Mariah trotted a bit infront of us. =] Then it was time to walk back to the barn, and Tino was a bit tired, but once she saw Apache, who kept calling out to us. My mom said Apache was calling out the whole time we were gone. He's used to get ridden more then Tino is, cuz there's a girl named Megan, who normaly comes and rides with Robin as well. So once we got close enough to hear Apache, Tino perked right up, and started prancing. It was so cute.
I gave Apache, Tino, Little Girl, and Mariah an apple each. I gave one to Billy, the goat as well. And when Robin and I were riding back to the barn, Robin was talking about how she was amazed I was so good, and that I had such good control over Tino. And she said Tino's my buddy, which means, I'm going to be the one who rides her all the time now, unless Dale is. Which is nice. Dale even said I did good =3 Dale was so pleased when I gave him chocolate sprinkle covered brownies with walnuts and powdered sugar, and some peanut butter cookies. He said he LOVED my chocolate chip cookies, he kept asking for more. Haha. Robin said she only got one, and I put a whole bunch of them in there.
So tomorrow I get to go riding, again =3 I love this routine. I look forward to Mondays now.
My grandma gave me a big bag of horse apples, [ground apples basicaly, ones that have a few bug holes] And i'm going to give those to Robin, to put in the bucket with the other ones.
I acutally woke up this morning, and thought it was Monday. I was all happy, and I started getting dressed, then realized it was only sunday.
I'm going to buy a helmet soon. Not this pay period but next. Because I got a brand new bed on Friday. It's lovely. So my parents get paid every other thursday. Well, my mom gets paid this upcoming thursday, right? So, she wants to pay off my bed, then the next pay period, we're going to order a Troxel Legacy smoke colored helmet, with a black stenciled on horse on the side.
I went to a place yesterday to try on some helmets, to see what size I needed. They had the two helmets before it, and the one after it, but not the style i wanted xD. And it's acutally like 10-25 dollars cheaper, if i directly order it from the Troxel website, cuz the store had them way over priced.
School's going pretty good. I've been singing a solo in choir, and Thursday I laughed the first time, the second time I got super quiet.
Friday, I did it louder, and held the note perfectly, but I needed to be a bit louder, but it was better. Mrs Tummenili asked how high I could so I did the highest note, and held it, and she's like 'Not many freshman can do that, and keep it steady. Wow. That was good"
I have a mulitopic speech I'm working on for my debate class. I acutally like that class. French is going well, so is biology and everything else. Rotc, is phyiscally draining sometimes, but that's because im out of shape. I'll improve, and get better.
I've decided, I'm going to my friend Amanda's house, on Homecoming night. We're going to watch movies, and eat brownies and have fun. We're crazy, but fun =3
I'm going to try to get some pictures of the horses tomorrow.
Oh, I got my barrel racing art prints framed and up, and I got a small pinto flag up now too. My mom also got two decoritve shams done for my room. One is like fake leatherish, with a red band of horseshoes, and a smaller band of horses. Then the other one, is dark brow pasiely and red, with the other side, the fake leather stuff. It's pretty.
We've come up with a pattern, for my queen of the ranch material as well.
Woah, this update is kinda long, but oh well xD
Here's some quotes and such, cuz i feel like ittt. [ -*-] = by me
-*-The minute you think you're going to lose something,
it suddenly becomes the most important thing in your life.
Or the moment you realize you have all you want;;
You want to be stuck in that piece of time
--[Forever]--
You don't know what you do to me,
you don't have a clue,
you don't know what it's like to be me,
looking at you.
One night the moon whispered to her
"If he makes you cry...why don't you leave him?"
So she look up at the moon and said..
."Moon, would you ever leave your sky?"
The best feeling in the world is finally
knowing you took a step in the right direction,
a step towards the future where everything
that you never thought was possible is possible.
Tino is who I rode again, I cantered her in the round pen and did some warm ups with her. Then Robin had me take her out in the pasture, while she got Mariah ready for herself. After Robin went behind the barn, to get Mariah, Tino sort of did a few little rears, and I got a little flustered, but I stayed on perfectly fine. Tino bolted once she saw Mariah, and I made her turn in circles to stop her. So after Robin got Mariah ready, I had to take Tino back over this water way, which she was hesitant to go through the first time, I had to urge her through it kindly on the way over to Robin. Then Robin and I went down this gravel road, we rode side by side and we talked. It was lovely. The sun was just warm enough, and there was a slight breeze in certain spots. I saw a few deer, and Robin even trusted me enough to have Tino do a slow canter from one point of this field to an other, while Mariah trotted a bit infront of us. =] Then it was time to walk back to the barn, and Tino was a bit tired, but once she saw Apache, who kept calling out to us. My mom said Apache was calling out the whole time we were gone. He's used to get ridden more then Tino is, cuz there's a girl named Megan, who normaly comes and rides with Robin as well. So once we got close enough to hear Apache, Tino perked right up, and started prancing. It was so cute.
I gave Apache, Tino, Little Girl, and Mariah an apple each. I gave one to Billy, the goat as well. And when Robin and I were riding back to the barn, Robin was talking about how she was amazed I was so good, and that I had such good control over Tino. And she said Tino's my buddy, which means, I'm going to be the one who rides her all the time now, unless Dale is. Which is nice. Dale even said I did good =3 Dale was so pleased when I gave him chocolate sprinkle covered brownies with walnuts and powdered sugar, and some peanut butter cookies. He said he LOVED my chocolate chip cookies, he kept asking for more. Haha. Robin said she only got one, and I put a whole bunch of them in there.
So tomorrow I get to go riding, again =3 I love this routine. I look forward to Mondays now.
My grandma gave me a big bag of horse apples, [ground apples basicaly, ones that have a few bug holes] And i'm going to give those to Robin, to put in the bucket with the other ones.
I acutally woke up this morning, and thought it was Monday. I was all happy, and I started getting dressed, then realized it was only sunday.
I'm going to buy a helmet soon. Not this pay period but next. Because I got a brand new bed on Friday. It's lovely. So my parents get paid every other thursday. Well, my mom gets paid this upcoming thursday, right? So, she wants to pay off my bed, then the next pay period, we're going to order a Troxel Legacy smoke colored helmet, with a black stenciled on horse on the side.
I went to a place yesterday to try on some helmets, to see what size I needed. They had the two helmets before it, and the one after it, but not the style i wanted xD. And it's acutally like 10-25 dollars cheaper, if i directly order it from the Troxel website, cuz the store had them way over priced.
School's going pretty good. I've been singing a solo in choir, and Thursday I laughed the first time, the second time I got super quiet.
Friday, I did it louder, and held the note perfectly, but I needed to be a bit louder, but it was better. Mrs Tummenili asked how high I could so I did the highest note, and held it, and she's like 'Not many freshman can do that, and keep it steady. Wow. That was good"
I have a mulitopic speech I'm working on for my debate class. I acutally like that class. French is going well, so is biology and everything else. Rotc, is phyiscally draining sometimes, but that's because im out of shape. I'll improve, and get better.
I've decided, I'm going to my friend Amanda's house, on Homecoming night. We're going to watch movies, and eat brownies and have fun. We're crazy, but fun =3
I'm going to try to get some pictures of the horses tomorrow.
Oh, I got my barrel racing art prints framed and up, and I got a small pinto flag up now too. My mom also got two decoritve shams done for my room. One is like fake leatherish, with a red band of horseshoes, and a smaller band of horses. Then the other one, is dark brow pasiely and red, with the other side, the fake leather stuff. It's pretty.
We've come up with a pattern, for my queen of the ranch material as well.
Woah, this update is kinda long, but oh well xD
Here's some quotes and such, cuz i feel like ittt. [ -*-] = by me
-*-The minute you think you're going to lose something,
it suddenly becomes the most important thing in your life.
Or the moment you realize you have all you want;;
You want to be stuck in that piece of time
--[Forever]--
You don't know what you do to me,
you don't have a clue,
you don't know what it's like to be me,
looking at you.
One night the moon whispered to her
"If he makes you cry...why don't you leave him?"
So she look up at the moon and said..
."Moon, would you ever leave your sky?"
The best feeling in the world is finally
knowing you took a step in the right direction,
a step towards the future where everything
that you never thought was possible is possible.
Friday, September 12, 2008
I've Got Your [Run Away] Smile In My Piggybank
So, highschool is amazing!
I love it, really do.
Today was the first day I wore my MJROTC uniform, that was cool.
It was acutally kinda comfortable, the belt got annoyingish, but oh well =]
We learned some drill movements, and how to stand.
I had four tests today:
Biology
French
World History
& Alg.
That was fun. -.-
Ahah.
So its supposed to rain all weekend, maybe a good time to curl up with a book?
Monday is supposed to be drier, and nicer. Which is good, cuz I'm supposed to go to Robin's house Monday, right after school; I miss Tino. And I wanna go cuddle Apache and Mariah.
I can just see her face, in my mind, staring at me, as she nuzzled me, wanting a treat, and I know I've only seen her once, but she's got that spunk, that attitude, even the way she carries herself, it reminds me of King, so I like graviated more towards her I guess, even tho King was a male, a grey quater horse, and Tino's a mare, and she's a paint, they still act kinda alike. yeah, I figured that out today, cuz, I was like, Ohh, the way she acts, the way she knows how to calm herself, and how she loves to be challenging. it's like, I know others are like that, but she deffiantly reminded me of king.
So I'm pretty content with life, atm.
It's sort of choas, but i love it.
Here's quotes and icons, ya'll.
Have you ever felt like you were meant for someone? It's like your whole life a huge mess that never stopped getting messier and then suddenly, you didn't feel lost anymore. You felt like everything that you had been doing wrong, you had actually been doing right because that whole time he was becoming closer to you. You just weren't smart enough to know it or brave enough to tell him.
Let your eyes fall to love's embrace.
Forever isn't far, it's coming soon.
Look at all the love around you
.Look at all the love that's found you
Darling, whatta you think you're made of?
if home is where the heart is then my home is where you are.
It's so hard to spend all these days without my heart.
so im going to take you with me.
so if there is ever a time that i should have to leave
then i hope you know im taking you with me.
with every second that goes by is one more second off my life.
it couldn't be more clear, im dying without you here
Maybe it was how cynical she was, or how she found out a long time ago that nothing good stays, but she knew from the first day that their relationship started, it would not end with a clean cut. It would be messy and painful and untimely. This she knew.
[Haha! Love it!]Now he's calling your house 'cause he wants to hang out and do that thing you do. You're getting overexcited and you can't fight the fact that he's bad news
It's actually pretty amazing when you
love life.
It's something you look forward
to and suddenly who you are and who
your friends are doesn't really matter.
It's what you do that
makes the time special. [So true <3>
Monday, September 01, 2008
New Poem.
Horse Owner
Restricted by my walls,
So closed in;
I'd rather be mucking a stall.
My bones aching for freedom,
For feeling the wind blow in my hair.
My lungs gasping;
wanting the fresh, crisp outdoor air.
My heart lunging,
wanting to hear the hooves of horses as they imprint in the proudly recieving earth.
My eyes stinging,
head spinning from all this need.
As I approach the gate,
I see a lovely little face.
A small smile spreads as you nuzzle up against my hand;
As your owner realizes how joyous I seem.
I play with your long forelock, looking into your eyes;
Feeling your warm breath against me.
Slowly, I exhale
Realizing this is real.
Realizing that your owner is kind enough,
to let me come see you and your friends once a week.
Realizing that your owner sees that love, that passionate fire in my eyes.
She can clearly see I'm in my element,
That I'm content and calm.
She can clearly see, a bit of her, in me.
Oh, I am so thankful for your owner.
For she has given me the gift of happiness,
She has such compassion, such a loving nature.
Truely a horse women is she, for she is letting me be one as well,
With her by myself, I'm sure I can be me.
For she is a loving horse owner,
and I'm a young, passionate,
Horse lover.
Two equestrians that understand the bond between
Mankind and horses,
What else could you need?
Oh, Lovely horse owner, is thee.
~~~~~~
Yes, it's about riding at Robin's, and all that.
I really like Robin.
She's an amazing person.
She got her first horse when she was 38, and she learned everything she knows about horses, by herself, through trial and error.
I've learned from being around barns, and working in them and riding at camp and all.
So, I am lucky, because by the time i get my horse and everything, I'll have lots of knowledge and all. I'll still have stuff to learn, but I'll figure it out.
I'm sort of hoping the next 14 days will go fast for me, I think they will. Highschool is already moving pretty fast.
And hopefuly, my mom will remember the camera this time, or Robin will have one this time xD Cuz, they both didnt have one last time. So yea. =]
~~~~~~
School is acutally pretty good. I'm getting used to getting up so early. I have homework every night so far. I like walking home, but Kendra could always take me home if I wanted, cuz some days, my stuff is just too heavy.
I get my PT Rotc clothes tomorrow, and later on this week, I'll get my boots and my cami's [short for camoflauge uniform].
I really like my debate teacher, tomorrow I have to give a speech on who I am. It's one of my course requirements. I've done all my homework, I want to graudate on time, and do well in school.
I'm striving to acheieve. Even if the only life I have is, doing homework, riding horses, volunteering at CIRT, and singing, then so be it. It soundslike a happy life to me. That's fine. I've never been much into the party, popular scene. So why start now? I won't. I will not let other people get in my way.
I'm sort of like this song:
No Reins - Rascal Flatts
She left that loser in a dust cloud
Heart in his hand, chin on the ground
Cried her last tear for that clown
She can see a little clearer now
She said, "Oh, oh, I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free
CHORUS
Like a painted wild mustang
Flyin' out across the open range
Finally gets to live her life that way
No fear, no fences,
nobody-no reins
No reins
All she's ever felt is held back
She says, "It's kinda nice to hear myself laugh"
She's gonna do a lot more of that
She's makin' plans and makin' tracks
She said, "Oh, oh I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free
Repeat Chorus
Oh, oh she's learnin' how to let go
Oh, oh whichever way the wind blows
Oh, oh she's learnin' how to let go
Repeat Chorus Twice
No reins
But I know when to ask for help, and when to listen, and when to pursue.
I am me, and that's all I'll ever be =D
Restricted by my walls,
So closed in;
I'd rather be mucking a stall.
My bones aching for freedom,
For feeling the wind blow in my hair.
My lungs gasping;
wanting the fresh, crisp outdoor air.
My heart lunging,
wanting to hear the hooves of horses as they imprint in the proudly recieving earth.
My eyes stinging,
head spinning from all this need.
As I approach the gate,
I see a lovely little face.
A small smile spreads as you nuzzle up against my hand;
As your owner realizes how joyous I seem.
I play with your long forelock, looking into your eyes;
Feeling your warm breath against me.
Slowly, I exhale
Realizing this is real.
Realizing that your owner is kind enough,
to let me come see you and your friends once a week.
Realizing that your owner sees that love, that passionate fire in my eyes.
She can clearly see I'm in my element,
That I'm content and calm.
She can clearly see, a bit of her, in me.
Oh, I am so thankful for your owner.
For she has given me the gift of happiness,
She has such compassion, such a loving nature.
Truely a horse women is she, for she is letting me be one as well,
With her by myself, I'm sure I can be me.
For she is a loving horse owner,
and I'm a young, passionate,
Horse lover.
Two equestrians that understand the bond between
Mankind and horses,
What else could you need?
Oh, Lovely horse owner, is thee.
~~~~~~
Yes, it's about riding at Robin's, and all that.
I really like Robin.
She's an amazing person.
She got her first horse when she was 38, and she learned everything she knows about horses, by herself, through trial and error.
I've learned from being around barns, and working in them and riding at camp and all.
So, I am lucky, because by the time i get my horse and everything, I'll have lots of knowledge and all. I'll still have stuff to learn, but I'll figure it out.
I'm sort of hoping the next 14 days will go fast for me, I think they will. Highschool is already moving pretty fast.
And hopefuly, my mom will remember the camera this time, or Robin will have one this time xD Cuz, they both didnt have one last time. So yea. =]
~~~~~~
School is acutally pretty good. I'm getting used to getting up so early. I have homework every night so far. I like walking home, but Kendra could always take me home if I wanted, cuz some days, my stuff is just too heavy.
I get my PT Rotc clothes tomorrow, and later on this week, I'll get my boots and my cami's [short for camoflauge uniform].
I really like my debate teacher, tomorrow I have to give a speech on who I am. It's one of my course requirements. I've done all my homework, I want to graudate on time, and do well in school.
I'm striving to acheieve. Even if the only life I have is, doing homework, riding horses, volunteering at CIRT, and singing, then so be it. It soundslike a happy life to me. That's fine. I've never been much into the party, popular scene. So why start now? I won't. I will not let other people get in my way.
I'm sort of like this song:
No Reins - Rascal Flatts
She left that loser in a dust cloud
Heart in his hand, chin on the ground
Cried her last tear for that clown
She can see a little clearer now
She said, "Oh, oh, I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free
CHORUS
Like a painted wild mustang
Flyin' out across the open range
Finally gets to live her life that way
No fear, no fences,
nobody-no reins
No reins
All she's ever felt is held back
She says, "It's kinda nice to hear myself laugh"
She's gonna do a lot more of that
She's makin' plans and makin' tracks
She said, "Oh, oh I gotta go and find me"
Oh, oh she found the strength to break free
Repeat Chorus
Oh, oh she's learnin' how to let go
Oh, oh whichever way the wind blows
Oh, oh she's learnin' how to let go
Repeat Chorus Twice
No reins
But I know when to ask for help, and when to listen, and when to pursue.
I am me, and that's all I'll ever be =D
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Heaven on hooves.
So I went to Robin's today.
As soon as we got to where the horses where, Mariah, Robin's horse, came up to the gate and nickered, waiting for Robin. Then we put a halter on her and tried to tie her by the shed, but she was ansy, so we ran her in the round pen for a bit, then tacked her up in there.
Then I got on, and I rode her around for a bit, and we trotted a few times, and stuff.
Then I rode Mariah around in the pasture, that was fun =] So then I got back into the pen and i was cooling Mariah off, then Robin was like "Hop off while I get Tino" And i got off, and she told me to unsaddle, so I did..So i thought Robin was going to ride like, Tino by herself..Well..She put the saddle I was riding in, on Tino, then she was like "Mount up"
So I got on Tino, and I walked her around the round pen for a bit, and then she's like "Kick it up a notch, Tino likes to canter more then walking or trotting" So then I got Tino going, and wow. I posted, and Dale, Robin's wife, and Tino's daddy, was watching, and he was clapping and smiling. He was impressed. Robin was impressed when I was riding Mariah around, cuz I was so calm and I had good control and all. So after riding Tino in the round pen for a bit, Dale got Robin's attention, and was like "Robin, let her take Tino into the pasture. Let her walk Tino around, she's doing just fine, more fine infact. She can handle Tino, let her go. Keep an eye on her, but let her go in the open a little" So I got to ride Tino out in the pasture, where I had riden Mariah earlier. Tino did act up a little, she kept trying to canter back to the pen when we'd get to a certain part, so I'd turn her in sharp circles. She didn't try to eat, which is odd, cuz she's always trying to eat they said. But they said I had good control of her, and I posted nicely when she was cantering.
So I'm going to start going on a regular basis. Until winter comes around, then I'll start back up in the spring again.
I'm going to start going on Mondays, I do believe, starting on the 15 of September And on the days, I cant get out there, I'll walk to where Robin works, cuz she works till 3, and its just a bit aways from school, or i'll have Kendra [ my brother's girlfriend] drive me to Procter, so yeahh.
I'm super happy.
Robin's horses are:
Mariah- We think she's part Morgan. She's a medim brown, with a copper and brown mane, and she has a few white spots on her belly, and a white star on her forehead. She's sweet. She's Robins baby. She's got a catarack in one eye, so you have to be kinda careful, so you dont scare her.
Tino- She's a big paint, she's got white, brown and black spots, and a beautiful tail. Deep brown eyes Shes fiesty, and loves to bite leather for some reason. She loves to eat and canter. She's Dale's baby.
Apache- Big beautiful bay Gelding. He's sweet, he's a quater horse. He was following me around when I was on Tino. He's more advanced then Tino, cuz if you're new, he'll side step, and get you off balance and then shake and get you off of him. He's sneaky. I'm going to ride him eventually, when Robin's comfortable with it.
Little Girl - A little black pony. She told me what she was, but I forgot xD She's cute, but kinda stays off on her own.
So yeah, I'm happy =D
---Quotes---
Its hard to wait around for something that might not even happen. But its even harder to wait around when its everything you’ve ever wanted.
You're the only one who ever really knew me at all.
He has galloped through young girls' dreams, added richness to grown women's lives, and served men in war and strife.
As soon as we got to where the horses where, Mariah, Robin's horse, came up to the gate and nickered, waiting for Robin. Then we put a halter on her and tried to tie her by the shed, but she was ansy, so we ran her in the round pen for a bit, then tacked her up in there.
Then I got on, and I rode her around for a bit, and we trotted a few times, and stuff.
Then I rode Mariah around in the pasture, that was fun =] So then I got back into the pen and i was cooling Mariah off, then Robin was like "Hop off while I get Tino" And i got off, and she told me to unsaddle, so I did..So i thought Robin was going to ride like, Tino by herself..Well..She put the saddle I was riding in, on Tino, then she was like "Mount up"
So I got on Tino, and I walked her around the round pen for a bit, and then she's like "Kick it up a notch, Tino likes to canter more then walking or trotting" So then I got Tino going, and wow. I posted, and Dale, Robin's wife, and Tino's daddy, was watching, and he was clapping and smiling. He was impressed. Robin was impressed when I was riding Mariah around, cuz I was so calm and I had good control and all. So after riding Tino in the round pen for a bit, Dale got Robin's attention, and was like "Robin, let her take Tino into the pasture. Let her walk Tino around, she's doing just fine, more fine infact. She can handle Tino, let her go. Keep an eye on her, but let her go in the open a little" So I got to ride Tino out in the pasture, where I had riden Mariah earlier. Tino did act up a little, she kept trying to canter back to the pen when we'd get to a certain part, so I'd turn her in sharp circles. She didn't try to eat, which is odd, cuz she's always trying to eat they said. But they said I had good control of her, and I posted nicely when she was cantering.
So I'm going to start going on a regular basis. Until winter comes around, then I'll start back up in the spring again.
I'm going to start going on Mondays, I do believe, starting on the 15 of September And on the days, I cant get out there, I'll walk to where Robin works, cuz she works till 3, and its just a bit aways from school, or i'll have Kendra [ my brother's girlfriend] drive me to Procter, so yeahh.
I'm super happy.
Robin's horses are:
Mariah- We think she's part Morgan. She's a medim brown, with a copper and brown mane, and she has a few white spots on her belly, and a white star on her forehead. She's sweet. She's Robins baby. She's got a catarack in one eye, so you have to be kinda careful, so you dont scare her.
Tino- She's a big paint, she's got white, brown and black spots, and a beautiful tail. Deep brown eyes Shes fiesty, and loves to bite leather for some reason. She loves to eat and canter. She's Dale's baby.
Apache- Big beautiful bay Gelding. He's sweet, he's a quater horse. He was following me around when I was on Tino. He's more advanced then Tino, cuz if you're new, he'll side step, and get you off balance and then shake and get you off of him. He's sneaky. I'm going to ride him eventually, when Robin's comfortable with it.
Little Girl - A little black pony. She told me what she was, but I forgot xD She's cute, but kinda stays off on her own.
So yeah, I'm happy =D
---Quotes---
Its hard to wait around for something that might not even happen. But its even harder to wait around when its everything you’ve ever wanted.
You're the only one who ever really knew me at all.
He has galloped through young girls' dreams, added richness to grown women's lives, and served men in war and strife.
Every second that I'm with you I can
feel my heart beating. Every beat
that it makes is like a new life breathing.
For the first time, love is a habit.
If your heart is a drug,
I'm a downhill addict.
He was far more than just a horse. He was a friend. He listened to all of the secret things that welled up inside my heart. The broad white blaze on his face caught my tears. His ears moved back and forth as he strained to catch every syllable that I uttered to him.
"You are a cool and beautiful person," she had said to me after the minipad incident. "Just remember that high school is a big game where the blond, perfect ones sit on the sideline while everyone else crosses a mine field trying not to look stupid. In the real world, this all reverses." She sounded a bit like my monther. "being blond and perfect prepares you for nothing in life but being married to a brain-damaged former football jock named Chuck and having a liscense plate holder that says FOXY CHICK." Next year, when Sydney went off to college, I would miss more than I could say.[From the book: Honey, Baby, SweetheartBy Deb Caletti]
If I don't cry, do you think I don't feel? If I look away, it doesn't mean I don't see. And just because I want someone when I'm alone, it doesn't mean thatI'm hopeless, and that I can't stand on my own
Think, when we talk of horses, that you see them
Printing their proud hooves in the recieving earth;
for 'tis your thoughts that now must deck our kings.
William Shakespeare
Because you're young,
you're torn between a world of hate
and a world of dreams.
So much to lose,
so much to gain,
so much to fight for,
so much to change.
On the outside,
you're not the same kid anymore.
you've been through too much lately.
but deep down,
there will always be a part of you that rejects reality
[NONE OF THE PICTURES OR QUOTES ARE MINE, UNLESS NOTED]
Sunday, August 24, 2008
As Summer Fades Away...
As summer fades away, I realize,
[1.] This time last year, I was just introduced to CIRT, but had no intentions of volunteering there, because I didn't want to work someplace where I would be around horses constantly, and never get to ride, I didn't want to put myself out there, for others. But when I thought about it more..I ended up going back, the week or so after thanksgiving, and I started volunteering there.
[2.] I've learned alot more, and been able to open to more people. Working at CIRT, has given me more confidence, and I've learned much, much more about horses. And myself. I'm more open about my passion now. You are never done learning about horses, or their habits. Trust me.
[3.] Highschool, isn't that bad. It's scary at first, but I will prevail. After getting a tour, and mapping out all my classes, I remembered to breathe. It's just a bigger building, with better classes.
[4.] Friendships will fade, and you will find new friends, as you pass through life. But you do have some friends, who will be there for you, all the time.
I've realized some other things, but those are the main things. =]
So I'm excited for highschool.
I start Wensday,at 6:45 am
lol, wow, I know. Early, But Early bird classes start at 6:55, the warning bell is at 6:50, so yeah.
So I'm waiting on my mom, to call Robin again, and talk.
I really wanna ride with her, soon.
And supposedly, my Aunt knows the owner, of a Dude ranch, in Missouri.
So next time I see her/talk to her, I'm supposed to ask her about it...Maybe I could get sent there on a discount price or something.
That would be loads of fun =D
uhm, yeah, that's about it.
Oh!
Polo on the pairie was loads of fun.
Polo is very interesting to watch, I love the sound of all the hooves pounding against the earth, and the sound of the horses heavy breath, as they proudly prance around the field.
I got to meet some of the horses too, and watch a few parts of Parade of breeds.
I sold candy for awhile for CIRT, and I watched one of the CIRT horses, get Hot Shoed.
I saddled up some of the CIRT horses too, and we showed the public what we do and all.
I put up signs and stuff too. It was very long, tiring day.
Here's some more random shiz xD
In the end we only regret
The chances we didn't take
The relationships we were afraid to have
And the decisions that we were afraid to make
I'm starting to realize
That we live in order to
Change someone elses life
Once you figure out who you are
& what you love about yourself
I think everything else just falls into place
She smashed the rearview mirror with her fist
Because starting today she's never looking back.
There is never a time and place for true love
It happens accidentally in a heartbeat
In a single flashing throbbing moment
--The Truth About Forever
The sooner you know who you are
and what you want, the less things
you'll let upset you.
Tell me I can't and i'll show you i can.
The best things in the world
can't been seen or touched
they are felt in your heart , , ,
[1.] This time last year, I was just introduced to CIRT, but had no intentions of volunteering there, because I didn't want to work someplace where I would be around horses constantly, and never get to ride, I didn't want to put myself out there, for others. But when I thought about it more..I ended up going back, the week or so after thanksgiving, and I started volunteering there.
[2.] I've learned alot more, and been able to open to more people. Working at CIRT, has given me more confidence, and I've learned much, much more about horses. And myself. I'm more open about my passion now. You are never done learning about horses, or their habits. Trust me.
[3.] Highschool, isn't that bad. It's scary at first, but I will prevail. After getting a tour, and mapping out all my classes, I remembered to breathe. It's just a bigger building, with better classes.
[4.] Friendships will fade, and you will find new friends, as you pass through life. But you do have some friends, who will be there for you, all the time.
I've realized some other things, but those are the main things. =]
So I'm excited for highschool.
I start Wensday,at 6:45 am
lol, wow, I know. Early, But Early bird classes start at 6:55, the warning bell is at 6:50, so yeah.
So I'm waiting on my mom, to call Robin again, and talk.
I really wanna ride with her, soon.
And supposedly, my Aunt knows the owner, of a Dude ranch, in Missouri.
So next time I see her/talk to her, I'm supposed to ask her about it...Maybe I could get sent there on a discount price or something.
That would be loads of fun =D
uhm, yeah, that's about it.
Oh!
Polo on the pairie was loads of fun.
Polo is very interesting to watch, I love the sound of all the hooves pounding against the earth, and the sound of the horses heavy breath, as they proudly prance around the field.
I got to meet some of the horses too, and watch a few parts of Parade of breeds.
I sold candy for awhile for CIRT, and I watched one of the CIRT horses, get Hot Shoed.
I saddled up some of the CIRT horses too, and we showed the public what we do and all.
I put up signs and stuff too. It was very long, tiring day.
Here's some more random shiz xD
In the end we only regret
The chances we didn't take
The relationships we were afraid to have
And the decisions that we were afraid to make
I'm starting to realize
That we live in order to
Change someone elses life
Once you figure out who you are
& what you love about yourself
I think everything else just falls into place
She smashed the rearview mirror with her fist
Because starting today she's never looking back.
There is never a time and place for true love
It happens accidentally in a heartbeat
In a single flashing throbbing moment
--The Truth About Forever
The sooner you know who you are
and what you want, the less things
you'll let upset you.
Tell me I can't and i'll show you i can.
The best things in the world
can't been seen or touched
they are felt in your heart , , ,
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
AH =D
So, my mom has this friend, named Robin.
And I told her, that if she ever needed a stable hand or anything, I'd be more than happy to do it for free. Because Robin has two horses, and a pony. I love being around horses, proven by the fact I volunteer at CIRT.
So my mom called just now..
And she said she talked to Robin, instantly, my face lit up with a huge smile.
and she was like "I talked to Robin..and she said, you can come ride with her, cuz she likes to go riding with someone else, you don't have to help around the barn, just brush the horse, and saddle it, and be nice. She's going to make you ride in the round pen, until she can tell you can ride. Then, she'll let you ride the trails and stuff; with you. Robin says you sound good though"
I was freaking ouuuuuuuuuuut.
Excitedness!
Just waiting for my mom and Robin to figure out when Robin can have me come over.
That's really it for now,
I have to go pay fees/get a tour, on the 21st, then start school the 27th.
The 23rd, is Polo on the pairie, and I'm going to volunteer with that. The benefits go to CIRT, and there's a semi-final polo match going on, and parade of the breeds and all =D
----Quotes And Such----
I love the way the city sounds.I'm yours today, I will be found.
I can't stop laughing, I can't stop smiling
Life is now or never
Forever never comes around
It doesn't matter how long you've known him, all that matters is he's had you smiling from day one.
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